the new look

2010-10-17T11:41:00.003+08:00

alright. i have decided to move to another blog for a good new start!!! :D
yakka.blogspot.com

2010-08-21T20:53:00.003+08:00

it's only the end of the 2nd week of sch and yet im feeling rather stressed out. over schoolwork. can u believe it?? being presented with such a thick pile of readings that has to be done before every lessons is really not what i pictured life to be. i guess it's rather different for me due to the switch from science to arts. im way more used to & perhaps, comfortable i would say, tapping on my calculator trying to work sums. n reading sociology & japanese studies texts are tedious bcos the phrasing and theories are difficult to comprehend. that is why i find myself spending hours just reading a few pages!! plus, there are so many unfamiliar vocabulary words popping out here and there!! :( it's so bad that i spend my weekends at home, doing my readings. i feel like im missing out on the fun - i have an urge to go to the zoo recently :) but well, schoolwork comes 1st.
i read a column the other day that one should step out of her comfort zone and try out new things with an open heart once in a while to add on to fun in life. and guess what i did? i went for the cheerleading tryouts on monday! well, i've always thought that cheerleading stunts are really cool and wanted to give it a try. and so, there i was! it was a totally new experience but i felt that it just wasnt something for me bcos i couldnt take the "heart flying out of ur mouth" sensation that i got when they threw me all the way up onto somebody else's shoulders. it really felt like a rollercoaster ride. and u know i feel towards rollercoaster rides. so i dint went back for practice later in the week. good experience though.
went for Synergy's welcome tea and i would say that i really feel very comfortable being around people. the seniors and freshies, like me, are really friendly. i hope that my days in Synergy will be FANTASTIC :D guess i belong more to the dance studio than anything else:)

i waiting to install Photoshop into my laptop so that can photoshop my stickgirls soon.
for now, i hope that uni life will breeze through for me. with me getting GREAT grades of cos!

i don't wanna go to sch.

2010-08-10T19:42:00.002+08:00

1st, before all things, i shall declare that i've turned 19 officially on 6Aug2010!! despite the choice of exclaimation marks, i AM not excited abt turning a year older. bcos even though the years keep adding on, i feel pretty much the same - just like im still 16. well, one thing's for sure. i AM still as giggly:D this year is gd bcos i get to celebrate it with the people i love alot - wt & cj. and of cos, my family:)

okay. so im feeling really upset today. today's my 1st day of school in NUS. i didnt like that i was feeling so out of place just like all my 1st-day-of-schools. i was feeling butterflies in my stomach upon waking up and i've been feeling like this throughout my 1st day of sch. and it makes me feel like vomiting. it's just so uncomfortable:( i couldn't focus during the one and only lecture for the day. thank god i only had 1 class. anything more - i doubt i can survive. the lecture on carbohydrates, proteins, fats and all those stuff reminded me of the biology and home economics lessons back in secondary sch. i had never like this topic and still i don't. i hated it more than quantum physics.

met up with wt for lunch bcos our lectures ended at the same time. i was feeling so bad that i didnt have any appetite at all. so i just bought a stick of crabmeat from Old Chang Kee. it turned out that the auntie gave me fishmeat instead. i dint like it but i couldn't be bothered. wt gave me his Subway cookie. i love cookies bcos sweet things brighten up my day.

all i can remember was that i kept saying to wt that i don't want to go to sch. i cant even remember how many times i said that. i hate getting lost in a whole new environment, seeing all the unfamiliar faces and not understanding the lecture. but well, all i know is that, if u dun like it but yet u cant change it, then learn to love it. so i'll try to love my life in NUS. i hope things get better and better for me as each day passes by..
shall google up on all that carbohydrates and stuff tonight..

a smiley for myself:)
okay, more smileys should do the trick.
:) :) :) :) :)

2010-07-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

well, im finally back from Taiwan. though my days there were filled with so much fun and thus, more worthy for me to blog about, this post of mine is going to be on sth else. but before i go there, i wanna say thank you to CJ who made this Taiwan trip so enjoyably-crazy for me just by being my holiday-partner:)

okay. now, even as im typing this, im feeling so pissed off and in fact, disgusted. i do not get it why within every guy lives a jerk who is so freaking detestable. and before anyone jump to any conclusions, i am not refering to wt. so, this guy friend of mine totally got me so disgusted with him bcos i can't believe what im seeing after so long. for sb like me, i have to admit that i am v against guys and so im always having this defence wall against all guys. and so, right now, i cant believe that his pretence has totally fool me and my girlfriends, bcos my judgement has never failed me. so this goes to show how gd he is with messing around ppl. we all thought that he is possibly one of the extinct decent guys in the world and actually treated him as such gd friends. to think that the real him is so despicable and desperate, targeting girls around him, dating them just to try out. and worse off all, trying to create false impressions or make things complicated when they arent. to see his true colors is a totally disgusting sight bcos i hate guys who do not take love and girls' feelings seriously, thinking that relationship is just a game that begins and ends very easily. (im having such a strong impulse to ask wt to beat him up or sth..but well, im civilised so that's not going to happen) guys who appear in my life are proving t0 me that my mindset that all guys are jerks is true afterall..which is a really pathetic situation.

but all i can say is that i hope that im right about wt not being the same as those jerks bcos right now my judgement is that he will be worth it.

and some of my gfs, i really wish that they arent as desperate in having a relationship bcos it'd just make them fall so easily for these jerks' tricks and whose going to save them from these heartbreaks by then? and nobody can save them when they let themselves get so blinded and fall so deep. that's why i always say that if a guy truly love u, he can wait. while other ppl think that im just playing hard to get, i think it's just a form of self-protection - to think carefully before u decide whether u even wanna give him a chance and let a relationship begins.

love with ur heart, and ur head.

1st day i stepped my foot on Taiwan!

2010-07-08T02:39:00.002+08:00

well, so this must awaited day finally came. so me and Caijun boarded the plane early in the morning, transiting at Hongkong. the food on the plane was exceptionally good - the lamb with potato set and the ham and cheese bread. so i really love the food by Cathay. and we only reached taiwan after around 6hrs. which is rather insane bcos i found myself having difficulty falling asleep despite the fact that i needed much sleep.

okay, so it turned out that our doubts were finally cleared when we reached the taipei airport and found out that our tour group consists of 9 people - majority of them being elderlys while there's another husband and wife. initially i wasnt too happy bcos the tour guide and them spoke hokkien which caijin and i totally do not understand. and well, what can i expect when our age group differs so much from the majority? we just can't seem to fit into the group. so i guess that is definitely going to make this 8days tour rather boring and perhaps, even awkward. but well, i believe that both of us will make it as fun as we can:)

but the hotspring resort that we checked in at night, where im typing all this from using caijun's laptop, is AMAZING! it's just so beautiful that both of us immediately made a video of our room! it's so modern princessy and classy! :) and the lounge of the resort is rather pretty too so i guess both of us are going to wake up super early the next morning to snap some great shots of the place! hope tomorrow will be really fun!:D

2010-07-04T14:41:00.002+08:00

feeling all cold n shaky today bcos i only had 4hours of sleep. well, this always happens when i do not get enough sleep:( but im having trouble with falling asleep these few nights. bcos firstly, i had so much thoughts n ideas going through my mind constantly. n secondly, i still can't seem to register the fact that i'll be flying this coming wednesday to Taiwan! arrgggghhhhhhhh. it's all happening way too fast for me. so right now, im feeling both excited and upset. excited bcos this is my long awaited holiday. i still remember how i kept pestering mum to let me travel and said that anywhere but Singapore will do. haha. i really wanted to have an adventure then. okay, n upset bcos i know i will get home-sick. i always do:( i just have to stay out for 1 or 2 nights and i'll start missing everyone at home - just like earlier this year when i went for wt's birthday chalet. so this time round, i do not know how am i going to live that 11days. a big girl like me getting home-sick? who would believe it.

so, i will be in Taiwan from 7th to 17th july. i hope i'll have an awesome time with Caijun:D

2010-06-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

have been doing lotsa hands-on things recently at home. n i get so engrossed that time passed so fast.and before i know it - it's time for bed agn! :D i finally completed sewing a fabric bear keychain, continuing from where i left off when i was in primary sch. haha. i definitely has a habit of procrastinating then:P i also designed a couple of stickppl envelopes, adding balloon and paper crepe materials for a different touch. I can feel so much creativity flowing through me these days. so many ideas brimming inside that i just can't wait to get up from bed and start doodling or whatesoever:D im also halfway done with doing a summer tanktop. just got to sew the last pieces of cloth together. after that, i'll get to wear them when i go to Taiwan in early july:)

thinking of starting my stickgal design line at the end of these year..hmm. just gotta further perfect my stickgals, get skillful with Photoshop & get a printing company! think i'll be ready then:D

well, drawing my stickgals makes me happy. because i''ll give them a smiley and then they'll make me smile just by looking at them. n people like my gals so much that they ask me to draw on their books and notes. and years later, i've come to found out that my drawings are still well kept in their cupboards bcos they treasure them:) i've been drawing my stickgals since im in primary school and have been practicising since then. so hopefully, they'd be gd enough to be loved and appreciated by everyone:)

late last night..

2010-06-20T11:24:00.002+08:00

haha. what a weird title for this post. but whatever:P had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market with kaiyan, chooiteng, greg, ivan and raymond at its Marina Square outlet. the girls ordered 2 main course to share bcos they serve really huge portions of Fish n Chips. i have never managed to finish one by myself. i can't even finish half of it!! but i simply love their fish with that chickenrice-style chilli sauce and their garlic rice:D after that was my 2nd attempt at pool. i seriously wonder how ppl play ppl so well bcos i can't even hold the correct posture to firm that stick. it's called the cue..right?:P so i just hold it with my 2hands n just give the white ball a poke. and i somehow, with luck, and to everybody's surprise, i've got a number of balls down the hole. yay!! but there were 3 caucasians at the table diagonally across us who seemed pretty bemused by the sight. after pool, ivan, raymond and me played Daytona. my FAVOURITE!:D hahas. we went back around midnight and i solved a sudoku puzzle before turning in:)

2010-06-13T17:55:00.002+08:00

Book title: The Gift
Author: Cecelia Ahern

Quoting:
" Gabe wanted to explained to Lou that people like him were constantly looking over their shoulders, always looking at what the next person was doing, comparing themselves, looking to achieve greater things, always wanting to be better. And the entire point of Gabe telling Lou Suffern about people like Lou Suffern, was to warn him that people who constantly looked over their shoulders bumped into things."

this is so true about people like us who are always striving for something - goal after goal. though there's no doubt that keeping a goal in life is good, we should learn to keep the main focus on ourselves and what we are doing - doing the best that we can. and quit comparing with everyone. there are bound to be people whose better and so it builds on to our feelings of inadequacy and inferiority if we wouldn't stop comparing.

2010-06-13T17:41:00.003+08:00

just finished a scrapbook card for CJ bcos her birthday is coming:) i always love to make handmade cards for my close friends on their birthdays and on christmas bcos i find it alot more meaningful that way. and since doing art n craft makes me happy, why not? but i kinda got scammed this morning when i went down to develop the photos for the card. paid $7 for just 2 A5 size card, each with 4 mini photos. i guess im gonna ask the Clara gal whom i've worked with in the bank previously where she got the same thing at a much better deal.Hmm..

one of my favourite since childhood is reading. and i've read 3 books recently - all of them nice. Queen of Babble in a big city, Queen of Babble gets hitched and The Gift.

2010-06-13T13:53:00.002+08:00

okay. im finally done with some editing of the blogskin. phew. it's really tough bcos i just do not get html at all!!:( but thank god photobucket is rather idiot-proof so i finally managed to create that 3-photo-collage:) sometimes i really wished that im more of an IT freak so that i dun get frustrated whenever im posed with such minor problems.

i've finally decided to change the blogskin from one of gray color to white bcos i realised that gray is a little too dull, making one too emotional. so i chose one with white background and bright colored words so that it will lift my spirits up!:D esp when im way more bubbly this year. i'm simply loving every precious moments of 2010!

2010-05-23T17:12:00.002+08:00

Falling Down (Avril Lavigne)

if fears what makes us decide
our future journey
well im not along for a ride
cause im still yearning
to try and touch the sun
my fingers burning
before you're old you are young
yeah, im still learning

i am falling down
try and stop me
it feels so good to hit the ground
you can watch me
fall right on my face
its an uphill human race
and i am falling down

im standing out in the street
the earth is moving
i feel it under my feet
and im still proving
that i can stand my ground
and my feet arent there
havent washed my hair
to be lost before you are found
dont mean you're losing

some day ill live in a house
et cetera, et cetera, et cetera
but you know thats not for now
and for now im falling down

2010-05-23T09:07:00.002+08:00

it really surprised me how much of Singapore was unknown to me despite the fact that i had been living here for the past 18+ years when wt took me down to Chinatown. the moment i stepped out of the MRT station n went outdoor, i was totally overwhelmed by what i saw. there were countless stalls along the whole stretch of road selling v unique items. okay, i shall recall what i saw - Chinese chops, water paintings, fans, Javanese-print dresses, exotic handmade bracelets and some Guanyin statutes. yeah, n lots of 'I LOVE SINGAPORE' tees. but i have to say that those tees with merlion sewn on it is super fugly ugly. hahahaha. totally hideous. anyway, the reason why it amazed me so much that i actually felt like a tourist myself was because these stalls resembled those that i saw back in Beijing!! i think im going to go down to Chinatown street again when i go to that area to settle my Taiwan trip packages:)

lunch at the well-known Chinatown hawker was nice. wt and i had black vinegar pig's trotters, oyster omelette and sugarcane juice. that version of pig's trotters is my all-time favourite since young:)

people are right when they say that sometimes it may not be a blessing to be presented with too many choices because it leaves u wavering between the different options. NUS's FASS is appealing bcos of their enriching campus life and overseas experience opportunities. NTU's Chemistry & Biological Chemistry seems to be beckoning u because of the good career prospects in the Science-related industry when u graduate n plus, it wasn't easy to be offered a place in the 1st place. n lastly, SMU's Economics which teaches u what the industry needs right now - science rather than the arts side of the subject. n after standing at this crossroad in my life for quite some time, i have finally decided to take up the FASS offer at NUS and study Economics, Sociology and English Literature during my 1st year. i hope this decision will be one that i will not regret when i look back years later. okay. i'm sure i will not:D

honestly, if i do not have any considerations and can do whatever i want, i would go overseas to study fashion design and start my own label. but then again, living in this competitive world, u know u have to b be practical. so right now, my plan is to get my degree 1st. n after having this degree to fall back on, i shall go overseas n study fashion design. that is if i don't intend to get my masters. way to go!!:D

2010-05-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

hi!!! it has been a really long time. well, all i can say is that i had never been as happy as i am right now, during these few months:D i guess now that i have all the time in the world, with no school work to stress me out - i can do almost anything that i want. working at Bank of Tokyo, Global Refund and currently, Fusionoplois is an amazing ppl. it's really nice to get to know so many nice ppl who make time passes so fast:)

oh, n i finally made up my mind and had a hairstyle that i always wanted for a change - bangs! yes! it was one of the toughest decision of all time bcos almost everyone warned me against it. but i was so inspired by the America's Next Top Model contestant Chantal Jones so i just went straight into the salon. one thing that i can't agree more is that changing of one's hairstyle will change his mood cos i have been like a crazy small girl ever since. hahahaha. but im happy so i don't give a damn what ppl thinks.

but working in a building filled with researchers and scientists really drives me nuts. and well, i have decided to let my fringe grow back to the way it was:)

2010-03-07T16:23:00.003+08:00

i won't settle for anything less than what i deserved.
im just not done yet.

2010-01-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

a word is just a word until u mean what u say..
love isn't love till u give it away..

2010-01-01T16:06:00.002+08:00

wednesday. 30 Dec 2009

dinner at Tung Lok with gfs. Chelsea, Jiaxuan, Caijun, Liyuan and Joanne. It's really great that everyone is available such that we hang out again after such a long time. the food there are really nice just that the jellyfish appetiser portion was way too small. but i really loved the seafood-broth claypot rice which was kinda hotel-standard. in the end, the bill was 242bucks. thank god cj's card passed bcos i really wouldn't want to end up washing plates in their kitchen. hahahaha. we were planning to go n have ben's and jerry for dessert but then jo got sore eyes and alil so me and cj went home with her. anw, lotsa thanks to cj who got me a box full of snacks from taiwan, bracelet and a vintage notebook. and also, chelsea for the diary style mask collection which was really special:)

thursday. 31st Dec09

things weren't as smooth-sailing at work bcos i had to carry boxes around to find the receipt bundles. and that was really tough bcos the boxes are really heavy and my arm strength has never been okay. but thank god it was only half-day. phew. and the guy from the IT department was really nice to give me chicken pie bcos it's his last day. so i guess that was a plus-point.

met mum at Anchorpoint for lunch. we ate at the Xin Wang Hong Kong restaurant. as usual, the food wasn't bad but the one at Marina Square is definitely better in terms of the standard of food. took a 30mins rest at home. then i met up with caijun and headed towards marina.
we wanted to go to the Esplanade to watch those small live performances but the barricades that they put in place misled us and eventually, we ended up at the marina float and had to find our way back. the crowd was so huge. those trample-you-to-death type of crowd. hahahas. the police officers around kept giving us the wronjg directions bcos they weren't really listening and pretty much assumed that EVERYBODY wants to go to the Marina Float. hey. that's so not true. in the end, this lady officer just told me and cj that it's impossible for us to get to the Esplanade bcos the Marina Float is closed but the crowd is still there, blocking up the road.
somehow, we ended up counting down in Suntec city bcos the mall's glass doors were closed. but we were really lucky bcos we rushed out of the mall in time to catch the fireworks. and the fireworks display was totally amazing, with a spectacular finish. even better than that of National Day. haha. the whole marina area was jammed right after the fireworks bcos everyone was rushing to get out of the place. so the bus trhat we were on was still for an hour before it moves slowly. and i got home only after 3am. i swear im not gg for such event next time.

2009-12-19T14:31:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!
i guess i just got alil too lazy to blog cos there's so much things going after the Alevels. can hardly catch my breath. so, not to mention - blog about everything.
but then again, all i did was watch movies, go kbox and do lotsa shopping!!
found an admin job not too long ago and im gg to start work next monday. i hope it'd be fun to work with the Global Refund ppl. although the pay isn't high, i decided to jump at the chance since it's a global corporation and so, this working experience will help to boost my portfolio.

haiz. but it's pretty upsetting that i can't be in Taiwan to attend Chelsea's wedding :( she's really one of my best girlfriends. and a really good fashion consultant. can't believe i will be missing out so much..too bad my mum wouldn't budge..actually, she did. but it was definitely too late because everyone already have arrangements made. but still, congratulations chels!!:D

seems like time really really flies..2years ago we are still stuck in that boring classroom, laughing over the silly-iest things. and ta-da! 2years later, she's got a bling bling on her finger.
but nothing about her changed. she's still the COOLEST person i know on this planet. (well, besides the olsens i guess. hahahahaha)

that's for now since im really a v v v v busy person:P

2009-09-27T18:58:00.002+08:00

yoohoo~ im back again!!
met up with caijun yesterday and we went down to Marina Square. Kenny Rodgers for lunch. the ambience was great because we were the only 2 customers. hahaha. it seems as though we booked the place just for a meal. opps..i think it's the boys over flower repercussions that im still critically suffering from. haha. the corn muffin wasn't super duper nice like what i've heard it was supposed to be. okay, i guess supposed is the word. but well, i just think that serving muffins before a meal is a lousy idea because it's carbs. which makes u feel rather full even before u get ur hands on any of the food u ordered. anyway, we ordered this half country chicken with 3 sides and nearly died. i think the big boss behind this whole restaurant chain should consider the fact that we are asians. not angmoh. that's the reason why ppl always waste food at such places.

right outside the restaurant was an exhibition to introduce F1 to more ppl, esp when the racing track is at marina itself!! and they had this really big model of the F1 car which looks damn cool!! n what's more, it's in ferrari red!! but they actually got this gal with really thick make-up and a mini tummy to stand on the platform so that any males from the crowd can go up and take a picture with her. and there's so many ppl standing there unmoved, watching others take picture with that gal. oh, come on, what is it? well, she may be a pretty face up there, but then again, if u were to drop her along orchard road, nobody's going to take a 2nd look at her. get what i mean?

n after a few hours when we felt that our legs need a rest, we went to Dome cafe to chill out. ordered a teapot of camomile tea which tased really great on its own, a chocolate brownie, apple and bluberry pie with gelato. the chocolate brownie is really one of the nicest i have tasted. n both me n cj are really obsessed with their brown vintage leather sofa!! hahahaha. i really would like to drag it home. n after that i spotted Karen, who used to be my so-called shi fu back at Dome Parkmall and chatted alil. well, i certainly think that Dome's a damn nice place to dine or chat over coffee. and this is definitely from an unbiased point of view.

and one of the highlights of the day was that we managed to witness the F1 racing. i could hear the "vroooooooommmmmmmmm" sound so loud and clear. also, i can totally sense the vibrations on the ground!! it was just the test-drive of the day, not the real thing. but well, who cares?? im contented with just that:D *beaming* all my life, the nearest thing i have with racing is just my love for the daytona machines.. hahaha. it really sounds silly..if ony i am a racer......

there i go again.. :)

2009-09-19T18:10:00.002+08:00

finally. finally. i finished watching Boys Over Flower:) the ending wasn't as nice a happily-ever-after..the impact just wasn't there yet. But seems like all the flaws doesn't matter as much when u have like 4 damn pretty boys. Gu Jun Pyo is so good-looking!!! *melting away* it's hard to believe that i used to dislike korean guys in the past because i find them weird looking.. hmm..maybe my perspective towards the typical korean guys still remains..

anyways, im glad that the school pushed prelims way earlier than it used to be..because it's ony after the prelims when i sort of finally finally got myself settled down abit. the 1st time im actually able to resist the temptations and push my shopping and having-fun plans all aside.. but still, i promised cj a month ago that im going to get crazy with her after her prelims. so i guess we'll be hanging out n having fun..well, probably next week.

one of the greatest invention in the world is actually the radio. it's the only thing that can keep me at my desk for at least 2hours straight. but then, it has to be 987fm. strictly. n im a big fan of Muttons To Midnight:) so i guess i'd be listening to them daily for at least, the next 7weeks. hmm..at least that will lighten up my mugging sessions:D

2009-08-30T01:26:00.003+08:00

prelims r finally over!!:D well, maybe not really since there's still a physics paper1:P but well, somehow i feel that im havng all the time in the world..hahas.

went down to causeway point right after the chem paper on friday to get my navigator hp fixed..ive been waiting to do that for a long long time..hope they get it repaired soon so that i can sell it and get sony c903 or c905:) it's a really pretty phone..

went to suntec city with wt today. ate at Astons - one of my fave place. we then stopped to watch a dance competition that was taking place. the standards of the participants were definitely above average and there were some pretty interesting lyrical dance. after that, we watched the movie UP which i kept saying that i want to watch even before it was released in the theatres. it turned out to be a really good movie. hmm..perhaps it's be more appropriate to say that it's simply a cartoon. the storyline was really good and v retrospective. it talks about learning to let go of some things in life. so, i'd definitely recommend everyone to watch it:) after that, i went window-shopping and saw this really cute supermario cap!! n i was pondering over whether i shd actually buy it..hmm..i guess i'll think about it tonight in my dreams:P

2009-07-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

You Are A Little Snobby

Being a little snobby every once and a while is totally allowed.

If no one was ever snobby, people wouldn't try to better themselves.

While you enjoy the finest things in life (that you can afford), you do tire of superficiality.

You know there's more to life than what's just on the surface.

2009-07-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

i learnt a big lesson today.
but i can't believe i had to learn it the hard way:(

as usual, i went vivo. but as i reached 20mins earlier than the time agreed on, i decided to do some window shopping along the stretch with forever21 and topshop stores. and that's when the problem came. an angmoh promoter approached me to introduce s type of curling tongs that he claimed is different from those usually sold in stores. n v unfortunately, as i do not know how to give a straight NO, i ended up having to listen and have my hair curled. after which, due to miscommunication, that angmoh sort of thought that i said that i am going to buy it and went straight to write the receipt and placed a box of curler into a bag..blah blah blah..it took me quite some time to register what's happening into my mind. OMG. n it's only then when i realised that i have just gotten myself into deep shit. come on!! $160 for 1 hair curler?!!! ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH... but v soon, wentao came and as he thought i really wanted it, he paid for it. it was only after that when i told wt that i was just acting as though i wanted it badly bcos i felt that it would be a great embarrassment if i were to just walk off without buying. everyone's right about me having a big problem of not knowing how to reject people firmly. and also, about me minding too much about how others view me..haiz.

so, as usual, he came and saved me from yet another trouble.

bumped into caijun, jiaxuan and chelsea while i was having lunch at Carls' Junior and it totally made my day:D and i still can hardly believe that chelsea's getting married end of this year. i think it's damn cool to for a gal to be legally married at such a young age, with a financially stable and sweet husband. i mean, that's a typical gal's dream:)and i saw her pretty bling bling engagement ring and im totally overwhelmed!! she's really lucky to be living such a beautiful life. awww..
i really hope that i can attend her wedding in taiwan..can't wait!:)

the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie is rather disappointing like others have commented. i didnt like it that the setting has been changed so drastically and that the dumble-something professer or wizard had to sacrifice himself..he's like the few rare decent characters in the novel..

2009-07-18T10:54:00.002+08:00

have been getting pretty frustrated over some things lately. frustrated bcos there isn't much that i can do to improve the situation. so all i can do is just to keep all these unhappiness inside, hoping that things will get better soon.

people are forever ranting that nothing in this world is unfair. i never believed in that. but now i do. alil. it's just so unfair that despite u putting as much efforts, u r not given an equal chance to succeed. and why is it that people who are always out to bring others down end up winning in the end? isn't it supposed to be that the good triumphs over the evil? so what is with this perversion of nature?

*praying for things to get better*

2009-06-23T00:47:00.002+08:00

once again the well-known lil-miss-careless by the name of rijia has caused herself much headache. i can't believe that i had seen the common test timetable wrongly and i actuall thought that the econs paper is on the 2nd wk after school reopens. which explains why i thought i can leave it to last minute. OMG. i wonder why my eyes are always seeing things wrongly. which reminds me of the incident when i rushed through the paper bcos i had seen the time on wall clock wrongly. and in the end, i finished the whole paper an hour earlier than the rest. but then again, it's partly due to the fact i cannot read the mechanical clock decently yet. need more practice. practice definitely makes things perfect.

but now, with just 6 miserable days left before school starts, and yet i have tons of revision left untouched. not to mention, all the holiday assignments. *breathing in deeply*

does anyone happen to have a paper bag?

maybe what i really need is a holiday extension. hope Mr.MOE has a change of mind. come on, can't he see that 89% of the votes are in support of an extension of the sch holiday?

hoping for a miracle...

2009-06-20T20:13:00.005+08:00

my navigator phone is out-of-use for the moment which does kinda piss me off. considering the fact that i would have to make do with my old samsung phone which barely has any functions at all. esp now that it's 3.5G period. or has the number rose again? technology certainly changes the world fast. n i miss my phone loads! im definitely someone who can't survive without my handphone.

15.06.2009. monday

08S28 class outing:)

not wanting to get tan, i decided not to join the rest at Sentosa in the morning..i mean, yeah, i do love the sand and the sea. but to sacrifice fair complexion? i guess im still not willing at this point in time. especially when im belong to the unlucky category of human beings where i'll take months to recover from the ugly tan lines. so, despite how many times raymond-the-organiser beseeched me to join them, i still said no. well, maybe next time i'll waver? u never know. so i got chooiteng who is even more against the idea of sentosa to accompany me to go shopping at the Orchard area. we went Wisma Atria and Ngee Ann City, and very sadly, werent able to go Far East Plaza as planned due to the lack of time. well, i can't believe that they have actually closed down the largest Topshop outlet in Spore a year back. cos their Wisma outlet was definitely my fave. i remember all those time that me and chelsea spent there, enjoying all the fascination we get from the clothes. but ya, one of the saddest part about life is that everything is forever changing at such a fast rate. and very soon, as u turn back to look, everything's pretty much all changed. to an extent that nothing from yesterday is left of it.

me and ct rushed down to the Grand Cathay to request the waiters and waitresses at Astons to make arrangement for the whole class, excluding the absentees. well, it's a pity that there isnt full attendance again this time round. the food was v yummy and the serving was just right for me:) having to finish a share that is way larger than i can manage will somehow make me alil unhappy. but then again, that always happens. i was alil disappointed that most of the ppl did not wait for shaoyan's order to arrive before they tuck in. and worse still, some of them already cleared everything on their plates when shaoyan's order just came. perhaps this is our class spirit. all i would say is, every lil small action speaks alot.

after dinner we all waited for like ages before they are done settling the bill. so meanwhile, we took class pictures and made quite a din i would say. n after much discussion, we all headed to marina square. the initial plan was bowling but the charges were way too expensive so some ended up playing pool, the others just played arcade games. n i totally couldnt resist the temptation of the Daytona machines. Man. i think it's one of the greastest invention in the whole universe. i just love arcade racing though im definitely not a pro at it. whatever. once i got my hands on the wheel, i just didnt want to leave, even after many rounds. okay, i shall put it under my list of dream. to get 2 Daytona machines in my future home:P maybe i should state it in the agreement before i agree to marry my husband. hahahahahaha. this thought is definitely brightening my day:D

2009-05-31T01:54:00.005+08:00

finally! i got my hands on the adaptor!! ta-daa.

n here are the photos taken on the final fantasy concert day:D

wentao came to pick me up at bukit batok and after which, we went down to sengkang.

had the tenderchops burger at Burger King. it just isn't as nice as KFC's. but sadly, it's GM food so it's still a no-no. wanting is definitely going to give me that look again if she sees this:P

then there was a badminton game which was pretty fun:) but moving around makes me tired v easily:p n i took a lot of courage to walk into Jean Yip for a haircut. guess what? i cut my rapunzel-long fringe!! i think chelsea's going to freak and tell me why on earth did i ever do such a crazy thing. wait till she sees it. she has always been so so against me cutting it bcos she has been waiting for her fringe to grow. but it turned out that the haircut was pretty bad after the wash:( arghhhhhhhhhhh...my hair is now so damn curly and uneven:( sobs..to think i paid more in hope of a decent haircut:(

me & chooiteng:)

mr yan<3

2009-05-24T12:12:00.002+08:00

wanted to upload the photos that i had taken yesterday but the camera's adaptor is with wentao!!! arghhhhhhhhh....nvm. i guess i'd just have to blog 1st them add in the photos next wk when i'll get to see him again. haiz.

okay, so yesterday i went to the Esplanade with wt for the Distant Worlds: Music from Final Fantasy concert in the afternoon. it's impressive how the tickets were sold out even before it was on sale. haha. which kinda made me feel a sense of guilt because it's a pity how a not-a-big fan-of-FF is taking us the seat which a big-fan-of-FF would have wanted v badly. overall, i enjoyed the music they played pretty much though i was sort of disappointed that those that i really loved weren't played in the concert:( i saw chooiteng and her bro and his fren. haha. the 3 of them looked similar. ct looked exactly like his bro and his bro's fren resembles him. it's quite a unique sight. hahahahahaha. after the concert, everyone dashed off to get into the queue bcos they wanted the autographs of the composer, Nobuo Uematsu and the conductor, Arnie Roth. it's also pretty funny that the composer looked like he just left the Taj Mahal last night to attend this concert today. he dressed up like a jap monk who has alot of hair under a pc of cloth. but, well, i shouldnt laugh at his dressing bcos it might become the latest fashion statement since he's so prominent. but it's v cute how he joined in the choir jus bcos he suddenly had an urge to sing. haha.

after which, we went to Marina Square for dinner at.........okay, i really don't remember the Jap restaurant name:P but their unagi sushi is the best i ever tasted:) anyways, we then walked back to the Esplanade and explored the roof terrace and watched a few random performances held around there. okay, i know it's mean but, I really really can't stand the sight of that gay painter who displayed his ability to jump and dance simultaneously. i mean, he IS SO DAMN GAY. gross.

hopefully i'd be able to upload the photos next week:)

sometimes, when i say it's okay,
i don't actually mean what i say..
i just didn't want to make u feel guilty of what u did.
but yet, i was hoping inside that u'd be able to discern what's real and what's not..

2009-05-16T16:16:00.002+08:00

have been really v busy for the past few weeks bcos of talentime dance practices everyday after sch..it really makes me feel v drained..but it's now all over bcos my group didn't make it to the finals afterall:( v sadly. it was definitely unexpected that the music would go wrong..and when that happens, everything is messed up bcos all the members' timing is just simply went wrong.. and now that it's all in past, there's really no point thinking too much into it..but nevertheless, i did have a great time with the dancers though there's quite alot of times when our discussions got heated bcos all of us are just v different..oh, n raymond, hansin and ivan were being really nice when they knew that my group didn't get in. which did make me feel better alil:)
so, now that im free from dance practices, i guess i can spend more time completing my homework so that ms aisha wouldnt have to make me stand during her lessons.

so yesterday, geraldine, kaiyan, chooiteng and i cabbed down to CCAB to watch sophia's volleyball match where they are vying with acjc for the 3rd place..the taxi uncle was really generous for charging us a few dollars lesser. perhaps he felt that we deserved something in return for listening to him share the academic achievements of his granddaughter and children..hahas. the match was not a very interesting one bcos it was pretty obvious that alot of jj's players weren't performing up to standard. and eventually, jj lost:( but it wasn't a very sad thing either bcos they have already achieved their target which is to get into the top4.

all of us then stayed to watch another volleyball match, this time it's ajc against vjc guys. n i must say, it's been a really long time since i last watch such an interesting match. both teams' scores were really close..which made the audience anxious of the final results. the aj guys looked rather noob and skinny, and their jerseys looked cheap, as though it is made of some v low quality cloth:P but after watching the match, it really brings across the 'don't judge the book by it's cover' theme. hahahaha. the vjc guys, on the other hand, were really rough-looking and big-sized. i think it;s easy for them to be mistaken as the rugby team. but it was a really good game.

can't wait for the final fantasy concert next sat^-^

2009-05-10T18:10:00.002+08:00

一个人就好
作词/作曲：徐旻铃编曲：郑楠演唱：刘力扬街

挤满了欢笑太不适合
眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮我松开手
回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什麽越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好
一个人就好

2009-04-19T14:35:00.002+08:00

it's really eons since i updated..but well, humans just have the tendency to be lazy..:P
so perhaps i'll jus sum up everything that occurred briefly..

im quite surprised that cj finally found her way to my blog..this is considered quite a feat since she DOESNT seem to go friendster or anything:P i hope she doesn't kill me for saying this..okay, n i've finished a really amazing book by Sophie Kinsella again, titled "Remember me?" i was so engrossed into that book for the past few weeks that i just can't wait to know the ending..n now that i've finished it, im hoping that i'll be able to get my hands on another nice book:)

things have been pretty crazy for the past 2 weeks bcos there's the SYF practices. okay, so i got to skip lessons the whole day on thurs for preparation. all the dancers came to school at 6.30am because we needed a rehearsal and some warm-up exercises. n it's the 1st time i was so early in sch..n i believe it's going to be my last too:P considering the fact that im like forever late for sch..but i really can't afford to be not on time bcos i've received the warning letter and would be suspended if im late agn:( n i was pretty amused to see old aunties jogging on the sch's track. after assembly, we did our make-up and hair. i totally loved my temporarily-permed hair. a BIG thank you to agnes and her super-duper hair curler which does magic:D n it's my 1st time wearing fake eyelashes and im so-not-going to wear that plastic thing in the furture..ms lee got us alot of high sugar content snacks like m&ms, marshmallows, kit-kats....hmm..i just love candies:D during the actual performance, i wasn't nervous or anything, surprisingly. and everything turned out fine for me. though ms lee said that our performance wasnt up to standard:( though i really hate staying back so late for dance practices, but im realise that im so going to miss it after syf..but i bet i would still be extremely busy due to talentime. this year, there turned out to be 100 over participants in total..hahahahaha.. i think everyone's after the money - $1000. okay, back to topic. after the performance at NUS, jinxian, wanting, chooiteng and i went to the KBOX at Clementi. it's been a long time since i went singing. n we sang for so long that i almost lost my voice. nvm..at least i had fun:)

2009-03-15T22:32:00.002+08:00

14 march - NTU Seminar

got to wake up really early:( but it is the weekends!!! haiz.. *pout*.. met up with kaiyan, geraldine, sophia, chooi teng and ivan at LJS for breakfast. but i still wasnt totally conscious bcos i havent had my morning tea or coffee. got a cup of latte there which surprisingly didnt taste too bad:P the NTU seminar was rather interesting for me though ivan who was sitting behind fell asleep, kaiyan was shaking her legs non-stop, and sop and ct kept checking to see when there's tea break again. i guess i really loved economics as long as they don't bring in the figures. but too bad that's never going to happen so i definitely can't take econs as my major subject in uni.

before going to NTU, all of us speculated that there would be a phenomenon where the jjcians will be the 1st to rush to the food table once announcement is given that it's tea break, even before any other students from the other jcs, esp those eminent ones, could react. hahahahahaha. but it turned out that we were all so wrong. in fact, jjcians were one of the last to reach the food table. but wad we do is we cut in directly to take the food, while the rest of the students were still queueing up:P

bumped into alot of bpains at the seminar. saw yufen, fanghui and jianyu there. as for the rest, i dun really know them personally so it's definitely not worth mentioning.

after the seminar, which ends at around 5pm, me and kaiyan went back to jurong point because i wanted to find a bangle to go along with my spaghetti top for tomorrow. after that, we had the prata sausage which was really really nice:)

15march - NUS Open House

went to NUS open house today with wentao in the near afternoon. the turnout was definitely way better that NTU's open house which was held yesterday. maybe it's partly because of the 2 death cases that took place at NTU lately..hmm..perhaps. i prefer the environment in NUS to that of NTU because there's fewer dark and empty corners in NUS. i really want to get a place in NUS badly. actually, the only reason is bcos wt will be studying there. then the both of us will be students of the uni:) i was thinking of taking math engineering so that we can see each other lectures. but seriously, i can't stand math when it's so in depth. that's when all the funny-looking symbols starts appearing which gives me a headache. and i loved chemistry, with exceptions for lab work. so, i guess most probably i would be a student of the faculty of arts and social sciences since im thinking of majoring in either literature, sociology or mass comm. but thank god i still have a year before i actually have to make this importnat decision because i simply do not know what i really want.

after listening to talks and visiting their faculty and cca booths, we went to Lot1 for dinner and an indoor stroll. n it's the 1st time i tried Mars balls which tasted very special:) it's actually ice cream with deep fried Mars bar. i think i'll try the other items on the menu at Chirpy next time. once again, wt got to return back to camp right after he goes home to pack his stuff:( i really hate these moments..

i don't wanna grow up..

2009-03-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

im starting to believe the power of believing..

2009-02-08T14:10:00.002+08:00

woke up earlier than usual ytd, despite the fact that it's a wkend bcos i promised some of the ppl that i will join them in the CNY outing to Mrs Kwan's house..it's pretty amazing how everyone is still keeping in contact 6years later. i thought nobody ever keep in touch with primary sch friends:P anyways, i told kelly over the phone the other day how im really reluctant to go bcos there's bound to be awkwardness now that all of us are so different. but haiz..i dun even know i agreed to it..
mrs kwan's house turned out to be at Gardenvista. well, i didn't know that she moved. there's so much things that have changed but im clueless about. okay, i shall make a list.

I didn't know that....
1)mrs kwan moved house
2) there's ppl in 6Faith by the name of jingyu and marcus..ya, n even weirder names like seeyui and chadran..who are they???
3)xianwen had transferred to jj
4)mrs kwan has 2 daughters
5)joseph is in rugby
6)kelly is studying law in poly
7)poyi has long hair now

so ya, all of us ate pizza and chat about out respective jc and poly life, the punishments that we used to get in pri sch..and then mrs kwan posed a pretty interesting qn to all of us. she asked us to speculate who among us is going to get married soon..haha. im quite interested to know too..well, we'll all get our answers in a few years:) then, all of us left at 2pm after taking some photos..(maybe i should check if they're uploaded on Facebook) after which, we decided to go Jurong Point for some walking. but when gals say that, we obviously meant shopping. just that the guys who tagged along didnt know yet:P but i felt really bored on the 174 bus bcos there's really like no conversations that i want to share with them, and i alighted at westmall at the v last minute. inside, i was really thinking "im saved!" :P haha.

caijun was on her way to westmall at the same time so we settled settled for Swensens cos she said she's hungry. we then have our usual gossip session over lunch. but then, cj's action was so big that she knocked a cup of iced water over and it got all over my dress, bt thank god, the waiter was responded fast and got me a whole stack of napkins. after which, both of us just laughed it off bcos it's a pretty common thing that either of us embarrass the other in public due to our carelessness. haha. i guess that's our way of life.

2009-02-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

im soooo happy that it's the weekends again!!:D
this wk hasnt been all that great bcos im still having trouble switching to the 'non-holiday' mood..and also, quite alot of incidents took place left me feeling uncertain and maybe even empty..nvm..i shall chuck those stuff aside for now.

it's the 1st math test of the new yr and yet i screwed it up:( the 1st qn on tangent inverse left me staring in shock bcos i can't believe that i do not have any idea how to even start, despite the fact that its formula was provided in MF15. so after that an, i was feeling totally demoralised and fumbled at all the next few. but fortunately, my result was still okay.

during dance practice, chooi teng and i discussed about our future plans and it got us both pretty worried cos we really want to get into NUS..but it seems so out of reach:( i have to get into NUS!! :( :( :( i want to go to sch together with wt..since he has already been given a place in NUS, i guess what i can do now is just to work hard and pray that i get a place there too..

n wt's off to New Zealand and will only be returning after 2wks:'(
hope he returns soon..

2009-01-17T15:57:00.003+08:00

Friday.

To sum up, it has been a terrible day.
:( :( :(
1st, i had to run all the way to the assembly ground bcos i was nearly late. n got a cramp.
2nd, there was the height-n-weight taking session. n OMG. the stoopid machine says i gained 4kg. that is if i heard correctly. but come on, how is that possible? i had dance practices in the holidays..Grrr..if that weighing machine isnt the sch property, i would have thrown it down from the highest building i can find..that stoopid machine.

n guess what, i caught some Big Fat Liar in her act..
while Sophia was helping us gals take our height, i stood near her, meanwhile chatting with chooi teng. so after sophia measures that 三个子's (what we alwas call her) height, she told her that she's 162cm. and i was really taken aback bcos how could that be?!! im like taller that her by quite some bit but im only 161cm!!

nvm..so i was thinking about it all the while and when all of us had to write down our height and weight into the name list, the 三个子 actually v boldly wrote "164cm"!
Ha ha! that's funny.
WHO THE HELL IS SHE TRYING TO KID??
i was totally stunned for words as i watched her pen every single digit down.
She's really unbelievable.
all my friends know that she has always been a liar since last yr but i never expect her to lie about such minor things..i hope one day, someone would say something to her and she'll change and see that lying and competitiveness isnt going to get her far.
But seriously, WTH is she thinking.

3rd, i couldnt do majority of the qns in the mini preparation chemistry that ms aisha gave us:( how am i going to survive the Mon block test this way?:( im worried..

4th, the extra dance practice. it makes me really demoralised when i just can't do 2 full turns and the fan kick.
:(
and the instructor is forever doing the steps differently and i dun know how each of them is supposed to be exactly.
haiz.

2009-01-17T15:53:00.001+08:00

Falling Into History - Avril Lavigne B-Sides

Don't matter what people say
I never did believe them
I know, I know they know everything
I’ll be alright by myself
And no one's gonna tell me
I'm defined
Confined by love

Now our days seem strange
I guess my heart was bound to change

I fell out, out of you and me
You're fading from view
And you're falling into history

I never thought that I'd say
That I don't really miss you
I lived, I breathed your breath through me
Time has a way of passing by
Until I don't remember why
or how to hurt for you
Love's pain has gone somewhere
And I'm finally hanging it there

2009-01-11T22:09:00.004+08:00

Announcement: I'm not at all ready for sch!!! Noooooooooooo....

i really really don't want to go to sch. i dun care but i just want to kp saying tis till the whole world gets sick of me:( i know i should be thankful for the extra wk of holiday and stay contented..but human beings are born greedy. a fact that everyone should accept:P perhaps it's the whole 'i can't fit into the JJculture and way of things' problem again that makes me detest going to sch after a long break..but the truth is, i never wanted to fit in..cos i dun see it as sth gd. i hope that the no JJ staff stumble upon this random blog and freak out.

Saturday.10/01/09
it's 1 of the 'rarest' occasion where im not late:P
had lunch with wentao at this BeiChuan restaurant for steamboat buffet. seriously, i think tis whole restaurant is a setup. they had so many signs around the mall directing ppl to the location of their restaurant which was at a corner. and the food wasnt that nice or whatsoever. they didnt even make an attempt to furnish the place beautifully since they are out to cheat ppl. and the boss who looked more like a fengshui master kept walking around to supervise, as if to ensure that his plans go well. it's crazy.
bought a military vest at Forever21 after trying on more than 5 varieties. im glad wt's still as patient as ever so he dint pull a long face. in fact, he never did:) im soooo lucky^-^
was thinking of getting a dark blue cardigan from Zara but then i decided against it bcos i know that's just the 'Brand' effect that always causes my mind to be unable to function properly.

i really want that handmade weeklander bag so badly:(

n i still dun want to go to sch:(

2009-01-03T15:03:00.002+08:00

just finished 'Can u keep a secret?' by Sophie Kinsella..it's a really humourous meg-cabot-type of novel:)

it's really saddening that i have to pull myself out of the BPGHS March Back in the end bcos of a dance practice held in advance:( i can't believe i've missed out alot!! i had wanted to be part of it really badly. it seems like loads of people were there (from the posted photos on Facebook). and i want that teddy in Bp tee!! gotta find a way to get my hands on them..but i seriously wonder how am i going to do that..hmm..

dance practices have been pretty tedious the whole week..we only got a break on new year. n thanks to that, all of us have got new bruises and blisters even before the old ones get to heal..and the instructor refused to let us wear ballet shoes which would definitely do alot in protecting our feet:(

im getting pretty tired from all the non-stop shopping. went to vivo and orchard with mum and sis on thurs and fri. n i bought a navy blue dress from Split - a label sold in Tangs dept. didnt like it that much but still got it anyway. spot a few groups of sec sch students who were shopping at orchard right after their 1st day of sch. i bet many are still in the holiday mood. and it's a fri, need i say more?

2008-12-28T15:15:00.002+08:00

a v v v v belated merry xmas to all!!:P
mum brought me, together with bro and sis, down to Bukit Panjang Plaza early in the morning for breakfast at Delifrance. we were planning to have the breakfast buffet but it turned out that the food looked so not-at-all-tempting. so i ordered the typical English breakfast set instead..after breakfast, bro got a few football jerseys from Royal Sporting while sis and i waited impatiently - meanwhile looking around. but still, sportswear doesnt appeal to me at all the way Topshop does. but v unfortunately, i fell pretty sick at the mall and had to return home to rest. and ever since, i have been staying at home and specifically - resting and doodling most of the time:(

so after a while, mum figured out that ive got an infection from my brand new wisdom tooth growing..ahhh..and that explains the on-and-off fever, cold, sorethroat, cough that i experienced :( but anyways, my situation has finally brighten up alil. which is gd since i have loads of dance practices awaiting me right after xmas break. hopefully i feel well enough to do my shopping on mon:P

2008-12-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

BPGHS March Back
2Jan09
7.30am at Teck Whye Campus

i find the whole idea of a march back to our new campus really meaningful:) imagine - all Bpians gathering once again and walking all the way from the temporary holding site all the way to the 4th avenue. i definitely want to be a part of this march!

have been feeling really lazy since the beginning of the holidays. which is something bad i guess. it makes me feel as though im having a bulky empty shell above my shoulders. in short - not working makes me feel like im getting dumb. ad dumb-er with each passing day. haha.

dance practice on tues turned out pretty bad and the dancers were reprimanded by the instructor. quoting what she said - "those we were improving did badly, and those who were already quite bad did even worse". Ouch. i wonder who can forget that statement she made. that was also what me, wanting, jin xian and ronald were discussing about when we went to the KFC nearby for lunch. this mini crank gathering is really a 'once in a blue moon' thing since we don't get to hang out often. ya, and i saw ivan and min wei, and a couple of jjcians who probably just returned from the korea trip. not just that, i saw boy-at-the-bustop, and ivan's 'your neighbour' qn brought about this teeny bit of awkwardness for a moment. but thank god i handled the situation pretty okay. phew! but im so going to murder ivan if he does that again. haha.

mr men and little miss are back again! i used to love them alot when i was a kid. haiz. i really shouldnt have passed down my 'Mr and Little Miss' collection to my cousins.

2008-12-08T01:47:00.001+08:00

in a 100 years..

2008-11-30T18:41:00.003+08:00

hmm..just realised that i havent blog for some time:P
so im updating it now.

i finally went shopping with pinky princess on thurs:) it's been almost a year since i last saw her..and hanging out with her again reminds me of my lower sec days when we will wait for each others' classes to end so that we can go out for lunch and go our shopping - everyday without fail:) ya, that explained why my grades dropped and i had to switch from special to express stream eventually..but still, those days were really memorable..

so, jolyn and i headed for bugis where we are going to do our shopping. we saw many beautiful tops and dresses but the sad thing is, we are both rather broke. haha. n i didnt want to use up the 50bucks that mum gave me just that morning bcos it probably makes me feel guilty again:P so all we did was just amble around the mall and also, bugis street. but as usual, we couldnt stand the heat and had to retreat back to the mall. haha. after that, we ate rice burgers at Mos for dinner and rushed back home to watch our tv.

it really amazes me how both of us still click well even though we haven't really hang out or chat together for my last 2yrs in bpghs..but im glad that both of us hadnt change much. we are stillas giggly when together. haha. n she's still as health-conscious:P n i nearly got a cardiac arrest when she told me that she joined floorball..no one would ever believe that, not just me. maybe we'll be going out agn the coming week for a sakae buffet with caijun.

as for now, i shall pray that ushering at the J2's prom would go smoothly:D

jolyn<3

2008-11-14T23:01:00.011+08:00

i cant believe that Forever21 straw bag that i was determined to get my hands on was actually OUT OF STOCK!!! OMG. i was still planning to do bulk purchase online after gathering liyuan's order this sat..who knows it's too late now:( arghhhhh.....im so going to regret being such a slowpokie

okay, it's been a really long time since i update my blog..that's bcos i thought there wasnt anything that's worth sharing..but ta-daa!! i finally got something interesting down here - my virgin trip down to the disney restaurant!!:) i've been pestering my mum and wentao to bring me there and finally, my teeny wish has come true:)

last sunday, mum brought me and sis down to IKEA to do some furniture viewing bcos she had plans to change the sofa before the new year..actually, i think she meant CNY in fact..since that;s what the Chinese usually meant when the said new year. so, when it was dinner time, i pestered to go to the disney restuarant again..and this time, i succeeded. well, everything there was pretty fairytale-like - the mickey-shaped blue chairs, cartoon menu with really cute names (the mango + strawberry smoothie turned out to be called the Prince Charming's Kiss)..the whole place is just amazing..and there was the viewing of The Princess Diaries at that moment. our food came really fast, even faster than Mos Burger:P the pizza was rather huge, bigger that Pizza Hut's, but yet of around the same price. but still the main thing is, it's isn't plain bread but the herbs kind. something like foccacia:D so it's definitely to-die-for. plus, the spaghetti is just as well..

btw, is anyone interested in the dress below?

cos im in need of cash nw:P it is defintely first-hand, with the dress tag still intact..n the quality is definitely guranteed. im selling it at $29:D

there is another photo below to show the print on the dress clearer.

p.s let me know if u r interested:)

2008-11-08T12:11:00.002+08:00

finally Project Work is over!!! haha. and im glad that there 2 less subjects left for me to juggle in the coming year:) but hope PW and chinese had been well done. i was feeling really bored yesterday after going to sch early in the morning to hand in I&R, so in the end, i went shopping at vivo with amanda, mei xiu and yueyin.. the weather was really hot, making our 30mins plus walk to jurong point unpleasant, or rather,the journey seems longer that it actually is..n i really love shopping at vivocity bcos they have almost all my favourite shops there!!!:) but now, what i lack is money!!

and another problem, why do we have to go for steamboat at turf city for class outing??! firstly, we could have settled for a restuarant or cafe with that amount of money, where all of us can just take our time to eat and chat. secondly, the ambience of restaurants is definitely way better that a non-air conditioned and crowded place. thirdly, restaurants are located in shopping malls so the class could just walk walk after dinner, instead of heading home since there's really nothing to do at turf city. plus, it just doesnt make sense for a large group of people to make their way down to a relatively remote place - adding on to everyone's inconvenience. well, i guess amanda has been hearing my complaints ever since.......eons? haha. just bear with it. cos i can't assure anyone that there's going to be an end to it:P

2008-11-02T12:08:00.002+08:00

okay, for once i finally bothered to open my mails and read..and i kinda saw the signs that im going to die early from the email that ranjini forwarded..k, i shall highlight those things that i did:P

Brain-damaging Habits:

1) no breakfast
2) overeating (at times)
3) smoking
4) high sugar consumption (i guess i shd b dead by now considering the litres of coke i gulped down:P not to mention, my love for candies)
5) air pollution
6) sleep deprivation
7) head covered while sleeping (actually, it sounds funny..but i cant sleep without heavy cushions on my head..hahas.)
8) working your brain during illness
9) lacking in stimulating talks (???)
10) talking rarely

i realised that it has been a realy long time since i last lay my eyes on any piece of homework..so all that's inside my head now are just the latest designs of heels, clothes and accessories..:P i bet im going to ace it if there's a test on the prices of clothes and stuff..haha. i really want a job as the Topshop style advisor in time to come, though i do suffer from some wardrobe malfunction at times..but again, it's going to be fun matching clothes and shoes everyday:D
nvm, i guess i shall just study hard now, get a place in NUS, get a well-paid and enjoyable job, earn enough to sponsor my own shopping trips and to make my piggybank well-fed, then continue saving and earning, get married at 22 and have a happy family..sounds nice:)
well, the guy behind waltz disney once said that to realise something, one must dare to dream..n that's exactly wad im doing:P

Taylor Swift - Love Story (OFFICIAL VIDEO FULL)

2008-11-01T00:49:00.001+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2008-10-27T18:44:00.001+08:00

hate that i love u..

2008-10-27T16:56:00.001+08:00

沿海公路的出口

用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆却学不会放手
怎么走

2008-10-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

my vision is getting kinda blur after the 4hrs straight of Hot Shot drama..i really lurve that W gal's voice!! hmm..seems like im going to finish watching the drama real soon:)
im soooo glad that there's be 3days of rest starting tmr..but seriously, it's so unfair that only JJcians still have sch all the way to wed though today should have been the last day of sch:(
today's mr ler's last lesson with us:( which is kinda sad cos i hate goodbyes..besides, he's a really gd physics teacher..in terms of both that subject and his humour..n i got 2 chocs from him:D though im really not a big fan of chocs, but i still wouldnt say no to candies:D :D

i have decided to take up dance classes at smu with liyuan during the nov holidays(hopefully)..chooi teng said that her priority is to earn some money, so that she can at least manage her dance classes fee:( haiz...how i wish she can join too:( well, we'll just have to see how things go..

the year-end vacation is coming soon and i can't wait!!:)

things to do during the nov & dec holidays:
1. shopping with sop & ct at chinatown
2. watch high sch musical 3
3. smu dance classes (everyday? - perhaps..)
4. shopping with my dear pinky jolyn
5. (yet to be decided:P)

2008-10-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

i never expect this weekend of mine to be so occupied..n i still havent complete my math tutorial in preparation for tmr's lecture..zzz...well, just here to update my blog again:)

went down to causeway point's nokia customer service center on sat and i practically wasted my whole day..to be exact, from 12pm to 9pm+..n i have to wait for 3hrs in the queue before it's my turn, 4hrs for them to refresh my phone, plus, the consultation or complaint time..n i was totally pissed off..i really arent a patient person..i mind waiting k..but thank god i've got caijun's company:D she came to find me after her CO practice at aj..we went down to compass point to collect the jay chou's album that wentao had pre-ordered for me..well, i've got the limited edition one..yays!! haha..i oso helped my kor to buy the ayumi collection..after that, we dined at Curry San, the japanese curry fastfood shop..i ordered the shrimp set which was a really huge serving.. but it's the best i ever had^-^ yum yum!! and when i could no longer munch down any, i asked the auntie there to help me da bao and she went to to it up:) after the poor treatment at causeway, it makes me so overwhelmed by the kindness of seng kang ppl..haha..that's exaggerating though:P

2008-10-12T18:58:00.004+08:00

"and i often wonder why
someone as flawed as i
deserves to be
as happy as u make me.."

2008-10-12T17:27:00.003+08:00

phew! finally completed my I&R!! yays. now there's one less thing off my mind..but i can't believe that's the only thing i did today..n i slept till 12pm+ seems like i really broke my record..i didnt know i could be such a piggy:P

i really hate it whenever somebody throw something screwed up to me and then said it's no longer any business of theirs and expect me to fix the mess up myself..come on..i really wonder why some ppl are just so self-centred..just get alife for goodness sake..

caijun called me days ago asking me what do i think of her choice to transfer from anderson jc to ngee ann poly for some business course..and well, to be honest, i have no idea..i guess she's kinda running away from whatever that she may be facing there..a form of breakaway..like what i always do..or perhaps she's really serious about taking up business and landing herself into her billion dollar business that she had always talked about back in sec sch..well, then, all of us would simply giggle it off because it seems way to unpractical..more of a dream in fact..i mean, talk about a billion dollars..but her determination tells me that's what she wants..so i guess, as a good friend, ill just be there to support her..bcos everyone knows that the poly social life is going to be tough on her:(

2008-10-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

bought my new phone last night..it's nokia 6210 navigator:) red in color!! i bet the lady at M1 must have gotten rather impatient cos i couldnt decide if i which phone i really want..well, that's just me..forever as indecisive and fussy..so in the end, i was the last customer they served..

n for once, im finally staying at home on saturday which really surprised my mummy:P hahas. so, i spent the whole morning and afternoon exploring my phone..but it got me really pissed bcos there's alot of problems that i encountered..even at this moment as im typing this post.. grrr.. before going to grandma's house to celebrate ee lin's birthday, mummy and i went westmall's M1 again..n this LG phone promoter, who happened to approached my mummy to ask if we require his service, helped me to retrieve those messages in my SIM card..but there's still alot of problems..but actually, the whole point is, that guy is really cute!! perhaps it's bcos he was really nice (that he didnt mind helping me see my nokia hp though he is promoting LG) and patient.. well, it's not like im going around checking out guys now that wt is not around or what, but.. ... .. hahas. nevermind..:P

2 more weeks to go:D
im soooo looking forward!!

2008-10-05T19:31:00.003+08:00

was supposed to get my new phone today but in the end the trip to M1 was postponed to next wk..well, it doesnt matter i guess..so im not exactly in the mood to do anything anyways..brought xiaojia back home yesterday when i went to meet wentao before he leaves for australia this afternoon..glad that she's here by my side now that he's going to be away for a long time..
went pizza hut for lunch and we ordered too much food again..wt got me the limited edition of jay chou's latest album..but it's not yet out in singapore so i'll have to go down to compass point to collect it..but the cool thing was, it is accompanied by a jay chou rubrik cube:) not that i know how to play it or what, but i mean, it looks nice..after that we went to the Timezone arcade..that basketball shooting machine was so..i dun know what to say..cos i got a score of 0 and wt got the ball flyin straight to the back of the machine-_-" got a new bag at compass point and we went to the arcade there to race:P hahas..racing is definitely one of the greatest entertainment in life..i hope that i'll be able to afford that machine at home next time:P haha.

now that he's going off for a really long time..i don't know what am i suppose to do..n it just makes me feeling like crying every now and then...

wish u were here..
:'(

2008-09-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

也许我们从此不再相遇
永远记得你微笑的眼睛
别伤心你放心
我知道三个字的意义

2008-09-28T19:22:00.002+08:00

promos finally ended last friday with the final paper being a killer..overall, i did mess up all the papers here and there:( but it's all over now o there's no point thinking about it anymore..had a great time for the past few days - playing!! right after physics paper, me, chooi teng ans sophia went bugis to shop..n i managed to buy 2 tops and a belt..it's the 1st time i got anything from bugis street..then we did meet up with kaiyan and geraldine who were also there doing their shopping..n kaiyan was buying as if she won lottery or sth-_-" or is it just the after-effects of exams? hahas. back in bugis junction, we tried the kimichi rice cakes there..the best i have ever tried:) yum yum..but seriously, the guy at the counter who kept greeting the customers in korean was pretty intimidating..oh ya, n the yoghurt at student rate wasnt too bad either..so, we shopped for 7hrs straight till the evening..after that, i rushed down to tiong bahru plaza to look for mummy..n yeah, we went shopping..my legs ached so badly that i had to sit down throughout the night.

saturday - met up with wentao at causeway point and right after i got off the 963 bus, i went straight to the toilet to puke..i guess this bus sickness of mine is pretty serious..after that, we headed down to century square at tampines..Billy Bombers there was practically empty..i guess it's due to its location at the top floor..but the plastic seats were really cute..and once again, we ordered too much..n it's the 1st time i tried that Dr. Pepper soda which was rather special - almond flavoured coke..but the Sophia cocktail was definitely a 'wow'..lunch was immediately followed by arcade..yay!! i had a great time racing..surprisingly, i found myself into racing after the go-kart race with my girlfriends the other time..wentao pretended that he fumbled so that i could win..come on, his acting was great but i could tell..wanted to shop but i had spent all the money i saved:(
wentao's leaving for australia next sunday..well, wad could i say?

2008-09-07T18:05:00.004+08:00

hmm..finally had the chance to blog..comp's really down so i dun have much choice but to use my bro's laptop..thank god he allowed:) if not i really dun think i can even do pw..well, kinda disappointed that i havent put my holiday to good use:( n vectors alone is enough to make me mad..frustrated..promos is coming real soon so it's time to buck up again..cant wait for my shopping trips after that:P i cant believe i even dreamt that i went shopping with the gals..hahas. n i want to learn how to play basketball:D

okay, i havent blog for a long time so time to update!!

teachers' day in JJ was rather unique..everyone was so busy going to the various booths to get food!! too bad i was feeling kinda bloated that day..meanwhile, there wasa concert going on..the malay gal who sang avril's "kiss me" totally rock!! after that, me, liyuan and joanne left for bpghs..by the timw we reached there, alot of teachers and ex-bpians had already left..but im glad that there's still some M1 ppl..everyone hadnt change much..after chatting and taking pics, me, lyand jo went lot1 to hang out with jiaxuan and chelsea..ya, and dong hui and chen chao joined us..well, it's kinda awkward seeing cc at 1st but after a while, i was pretty cool about it:) cos im way way over him..plus, it has been so long..i tried that korean kimichi ricecakes at the foodcourt..yummy^^ after lunch, me and the gals went Cotton On to tryon piles of clothes..it's been a really long timesince i last did that. n we had so much fun!! or was it just me? maybe. i always getting excited over clothes, shoes, accessories..typical shopaholics..went coffeebean at westmall in the evening and we just chat...i miss everyone soooooo much!!:)

n i cant believe im bloggin at home and not at Avril's concert!!!:( :(

some things are better left unknown..

2008-08-24T09:29:00.002+08:00

my comp has been having alot alot of problems and it's really annoying when i've got to use it for PW..grrr..hope it gets fixed soon..
was loitering around causeway point yesterday and guess who i saw? meiwei!! it's been a v v v v long time since i saw her..^-^i cant express how "over the moon" i was when i saw her!! but it's a sad thing that she might not be going back on teachers' day cos she has got promos then..so, we ended up walking round and round, talking about our sch..and the principal-_-" but there's something in common..both of us don''t like our schools..oh, and it's such a pity that she was wearing her dragonboat jacket..cos i thought that she might have been more muscular after joining that cca..on our way, we bumped into a few bp ppl..including qianning, who really hasnt changed much, if at all.. after that, i wentao came to pick me up and we went to sengkang.

teachers'day's coming..and i really couldnt wait to go back to bpghs and see the changes in M1 ppl:)) i miss everyone..alot.

2008-08-24T09:28:00.000+08:00

the S28 gals:)

2008-08-17T10:24:00.003+08:00

im certainly pissed off when ppl read something, speculate, make their own guess about things and then go aound talking about it as if they know what really happened..well, many times it not only makes the people involved in the matter wronged, it causes misunderstandings between the writer and the person in matter.

okay, put that aside cos if not it's going to dampen my mood:(

update on yesterday. as usual, it's saturday so i'll be out with the same person..havent seen wentao for like 2wks already. i dint even get to see him on my bdae..went harborfront's pasta mania. i ordered the baked spicy fish pasta..yum yum:) it was nicer that pizza hut's. but it was quite a big share so i couldnt finish it..and okay la, i must admit that i was rather surprised when wentao passed me my bdae gift which he bought pretty long ago. the pink Sony Cybershot T-70!!! omg omg..i had pestered mummy to get it for me but she eventually said no to it cos there's news that the Sony market in Japan is going to fall..n that digital camera was like so expensive??!!! it was priced at around $500 at that Sony fair in Westmall..so thank you wentao!! i really wanted it^-^ but now, i still dun know how to tell my mum about it. she wouldnt allow and would most probably ask me to return it back:( but i couldnt possibly keep it from her bcos i dun ever try to keep secrets that cant be kept forever.. anyways, i bought 2 鸡腿 cushion from Action City, which was like $21.95 each? wth..but i still bought it..one for my sis and the other for him. then he will have a drumstick to pei him in army:P

my comp has been having problems lately which makes me really exasperated:( hmph.
and i guess, im going to take the math exemption since...i mean, i dun love exams..that much..haha:)

2008-08-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

well, when people starts asking when u're going to update ur blog, it simply means that it has been eons since u did that:P so, here i am again!!:) havent go online for quite sometime because the internet kinda went haywire..reasons why? i don't know..n i would never know cos im not an IT savvy person to begin with..chooiteng jus helped me call the Sakura restaurant and enquire about the buffet..yeah, the 11 gals from S28 are going for a buffet!! yay!! that is if everything turns out well..but i see there's a problem with the time and travelling..shall ask the rest on monday. im so glad today's friday..can finally take a break again..

today's SPA trial was damn screwed up..but fortunately, it's trial and not the actual thing yet..i hope ms aisha isnt going to scream at me when she sees my paper:P and mr damien ler, whom i thought was one of the coolest teacher, turned out to have his swings at times too..especially when he realise that we arent taking things seriously..as seen from our various physics test grades..so i was feeling rather pressurized during his class today..it's freaky when the person in front of u seems like he might burst any moment:(

they say itoday is the 1st day of the ghost month or something..and something creepy happened last night aroung midnight..chooi teng said she heard some weird noises all of a sudden..and i have my share of goosebumps when turned my head up after smsing sophia and saw this green light and a figure in the reflection in the window..but i didnt get to see clearly cos i looked away too quickly..but then again, i am always hallucinating and scaring myself..so it shouldnt be true..at least that's what i hope:P

sophia and her bf finally patched up..and im so glad^-^

2008-07-19T00:49:00.004+08:00

now i realise what an irresponsible blogger i am:P gone for 17 days..hahas. had a total of 5 tests this week..which nearly drove alot of ppl nuts..it's pretty obvious how alot of the s28 ppl look exhausted..give us a break!!! haiz..anyways, im just glad that this week is over..phew. but then, gd thing doesnt last for long..bcos there's 4tests next wk and that's for now..u never know when more of it is coming:( :( sad-ed..

tomorrow's trilympics..which will be taking up alot of my time..from 1pm to 6pm..i wonder what can the Crank members (minus qianyong, isabella, benedict) do for that period of time..i mean, u can possibly dance throughout-_-" gotta practise the new steps tomorrow:p glad that Dionne is our president-cum-teacher..cos im really amazed by her patience:) oh ya, and thk u meixiu for the loan!! hahas. hope i bump into xin mu and meixiu tomorrow at the Trilympics..may everything go well tomorrow^-^ nights..

zzz...

a few pics taken at vivo with amanda and kaiyan:))

the really cool metal AVP model

spot the mian bao chao ren^-^

the ship exhibition. the 3 of us were snapping pics crazily. the ship was really really really big..

2008-07-01T21:14:00.002+08:00

快头痛死了！

for the past few days, i seem to hear loads of complain from class people that they are having headaches and stuff..same goes for me. and today, my head felt so crammed inside, as if there's a traffic congestion inside:( arghhh...suffering from brain malfunctioning can really be listed under one of those worst-case scenarios during exams..but i guess i shouldnt push the blame to this headache should i flunk my physics common test badly..i couldnt distinguish the topic that the question was posed on - kinematics? dynamics? i am certainly clueless..

was really glad to see chooi teng sitting at the desk first thing in the morning as i entered PD31. it seems to be eons since i last saw her, before she fell ill..she was unusually quiet today, but good news, she still remember that she likes to eat the 80cents beehoon.. haha.

having a 4-hours break before physics paper, meixiu, amanda, xinmu, sophia, chooitneg and me went to jurong point for lunch. the honey-glazed chicken cutlet pineapple rice was v yummy and affordable at just $3.50:) after lunch, we went to this hidden national library..they went mugging for physics except me..well, u know what happens once i got hold of those Seventeen magazines that are non-Singapore edition:D one of life's greatest pleasures is to read fashion magazine^-^ and i was really glad that sophia had been in a little better mood after the trip..cheer up gal:)

2008-06-29T13:07:00.002+08:00

phew. finally finished my PW stuff..ive been at the computer till 3am plus last night. that explains why i overslept, n waking up to realised that it's already 11am..OMG. and i realised that search engines like google and yahoo aren't exactly as helpful as u deemed them to be..people always say, if u need answers to questions or are looking for information, u just have to type it in the search engines and TA-DA, everything is there..and it's so not true..i spent such a long time searching for actions taken to oversee eating disorders, and nope, i didnt get anything. and then i search for which GRC or SMC Harbourfront falls under, nope, i didnt get anything again. GRRR..all i got was that it's pronounced as gang wan-_-"wth. nevermind. now i see the limitations of the net..just as perfection doesnt exist in the world..

but ironically, we are always striving to be perfect..hahs.

2008-06-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

just finished writing my 散文..*yawn* im not really pleased with the end product but then, im really too lazy to come up with a new storyline..haiz. today's econs test was kinda screwed up..why did i have to think so much and write that the firms should not merge???!! everyone whom i discussed with had answers opposite to mine..n obviously, i don't stand the higher chance of getting the qn correct:( then again, since when have i not screwed up my econs essay paper? *pout* chinese alevels oral officially at 9july:'( no way~ i really can't express how much i hate oral..and yet i have to take them again..has anyone heard of phobia of oral?:(

Chooi teng's down with some virus and wouldnt be going to sch tomorrow..hope she gets well soon:)

2008-06-22T18:39:00.002+08:00

today's officially the last day of the june vacation..i cant express how upset i am:( :( :( i don't want to go back to sch..i realised that i don't look forward to jc sch life..unlike my sch days in bpghs..i really miss those times..i guess it's pretty obvious that im someone who takes eons to adapt to a new surrounding..

was in a bad mood yesterday so i decided to go shopping alone till wentao came along..i still decided to go Bugis Street despite the fact that i know full well that i'll end up not getting anything..cos i really don't trust the quality and have second thoughts about something that catches my eyes, afraid that it's one of those items that might fall into the typical ah-lian styles..but the thing that made me 不爽is that this indian girl managed to get her hands on a really nice dress before me..grr..nevermind..but then i got a black shorts that mummy complained was too short and this really cool converse sneakers that was on sale!! and i was really touched as i just stood there watching him help me look for my size, checking to see if it fits and helping me with the sneaker despite me throwing tantrums just minutes ago cos i didnt want any other designs other than that:P haha. i cant deny that i get really unreasonable at times..and i got a new diary cos i finished writing the old one..dinner tonight is going to feel like The Last Supper..haha. i eman, something along that line..and oh ya, best of luck to everyone taking common tests:D edwin's sms with that lil pencil was really cute..

2008-06-15T01:23:00.002+08:00

*yawns*
im seriously exhausted after Caijun's Bdae party today..and feeling a little hungry..*stomach growls*..CJ came over to my house in the morning so that we can get her cake done cos she doesnt have an oven at home..and the both of us who are impatient people find that the cake took extremely long to be done..meanwhile we tried to do those fluffy choc icing we see on tv but still failed in the end. so we decided to make it into choc mud pie with pure choc:) it was really chocolatey..too bad im not a choc fan..
after reaching CJ's house, we went straight to work, the marinating and stuff..will wt try to start the fire..then i realised that it's going to be 3pm amd i don't have time to go to bt batok int personally to fetch the m1 ppl..thanks alot to huimin for her help:)
the BBQ definitely didnt went well..lotsa food burnt and wasted..lots of burnt fingers and hands too:P and the security was there to chased us off cos it's over the booking time and another family is coming in..and we still had alot of uncooked food which was later settled by CJ's mum..so paiseh cos her mum had to go through alot of trouble for this party..
and Joanne brought Shannon along!!:D it's been such a long time since i last met her at the xmas party last dec..i wonder when will i get to see her again..too bad she doesnt talk much and often mumble in reply..
CJ opened her gift from me and got pretty excited cos it's a pair of handmade shoes:)glad she likes it alot^-^..what more could i have asked for?:)
left the party earlier cos i got to go my grandma house as usual..it's going to be along time before M1 gather together again..i really miss everyone..let's wait for Teachers'Day then, where we see each other in BPGHS again..

2008-06-12T13:47:00.002+08:00

things havent been that good lately, espescially this week..was down with fever and sorethroat since monday. n i just couldnt seem to understand the topic on Costs of Production so i eventually spent 4days on it but still with doubts. and then taking a look at the calendar made me realised that the june vacation is cuming to an end really soon and here i am freaking out bcos there still many assignments that i failed to complete..Arghhhhhh!!!!!! okay..*breathe in and out* gotta chill... ..other that the headaches from my feverish brain every now and then, im having an even greater headache regarding Shannon's matter..i really don't know what to do..it's like i couldn't help her and have to watch her continue harming herself like that..somehow, i see my past self in her, just that hers is way more extreme..i would never slit myself..haiz. really worried about her..i hope joanne's dad could really walk her out of it:(

btw, if u r too free, go www.freerice.com to answer vocabulary questions and for each qn, 20grains of rice will be donated to countires facing high death rates as a result of poverty and hunger. it's true!!:)

FYI: a child dies from hunger or related illnesses every 5 seconds.

2008-05-31T11:48:00.003+08:00

have been really busy slacking since the start of the school holidays..which is kinds bad i guess:( okay, i guess i shall update everything all at one go..

26may.mon
was late for GP makeup lesson early in the morning and it was raining really badly..but thank god meixiu was on the bus with me..so i got a company:P and it turned out that we only got our GP essay test back and was dismissed..??!! didnt do well for my essay:( haiz..after which, me, chooi teng, sophia and liyuan went to Sentosa cos sophia needed to go sun tanning before going for filming..and one of the biggest mistake i made was forgetting to bring my slippers..and had to wear my soggy shoes for some time....arghhh..but thank god liyuan said she could lend me her slippers for the day since she got her volleyball shoes..while lazing around under the sun, a group of army and university guys invited us to play volleyball with them..and of cos, it ended up with me and chooi teng sitting down watching the 2 JJ voleyball players play. and never did the guys expect Sophia to be a volleyball pro. and they got thrashed. obviously..hahas.
after that wentao brought me to suntec cos he had to return his CO uniform to this gal at Build.A.Bear.Workshop...and she turned out to be the exact girl who helped us to make the Xiaojia..maybe we should ask her to be the teddy's godmother or sth like that:P went to the Hong Kong Xin Wang restaurant for lunch..yum yum:)

28may.wed
08s28 class outing to East Coast Park. the outing was pretty screwed up cos firstly, we had a hard time figuring out how to get to ECP..and secondly, there was a rainstorm..just imagine!! the gals had to cover ourselves with umbrellas cos the rain keeps getting into the pavilion.. meanwhile, the guys went to collect the food from the BBQ wholesale ppl..and we left ivan's bag soaking in the rain:P BBQ only started v late and i had to go home early..so i didnt really get to eat..was pretty hungry..but then i got lost in ECP and had to call wentao..as he was dining with his army frens, i tried to depend on myself and find my way out. but then i realised that i was really lost so he cabbed down from cityhall and brought me home:) thanks alot..im so touched that he came to my rescue when i really needed it..and i fell asleep immediately after reaching home..was too tired.

29may&30may. thurs n fri.
went down to sengkang to ask wentao some questions regarding chemistry..first time i shard a conversation with his mummy..and i must admit that i was reallt traumatised..

i guess i should really learn to depend on myself instead of others..

... ...

words u said left me speechless..

perhaps u are right..

but i wonder i can do to salvage all these..

is it too late?..

2008-05-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

read this..an email that chooi teng forwarded to me..

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!'
I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only goanna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?'
My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.
I walked out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!' GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'
And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight. One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.
So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbors said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.
'My dearest son, I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. With all my love to you, Your mother'. he then, shed a tear.

2008-05-25T19:02:00.002+08:00

Crank did our last performance during the Yoga Conference yesterday..it went pretty well..no mistakes made..cos i want to give it my best since it's the last time we'll be dancing together..isabella's stepping down, qianyong's going taiwan for half or 7years..:( gd times always don't last..but the gd memories will..
honestly, i kinda dislike JJ Modern Dance alot..perhaps im kinda affected by the dance politics here..i mean, what's the point of a dance club when the dancers seen to have sth against each other..it's a big mistake for them to split us up to compete with each other for talentime..and i saw the previous syf performance by the JJ seniors ..it sucks..a great deal in fact..haiz..better not think about it..i hope it gets better..

2008-05-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

Gosh.
i realize that i have been slacking alot this week..all due to the fact that the june vacation is nearing..next week's the last day of school!! yoohoo!!^-^ i have been waiting for this school holiday ever since the month of April..but i hope that i will make the most out of it, esp to catch up with schwk..today has been a greeaaaattttt day!!! i learnt how to play Collide on the guitar..yay!! great improvement considering that i still couldnt strum or play any songs in chords even after the 8 basic guitar lessons..there goes my $70!! sobs..my 2nd achievement is that it's the 1st time i complete one side of the rubic cube:D im really an idiot with it..i swore my sis was just a step away from strangling me..cos she said 'u r really stupid' to me uncountable times..my mum finds that disrespectful but im not offended..i mean, it's not the 1st time she said that to me and it's definitely one of the nicest insults i can ever hear coming out of her mouth-.-
and mummy made dinner today:) yum yum..that's certainly one of the blessings in life..

2008-05-15T21:44:00.005+08:00

today has been a pretty stressful day..econs lecture test, chinese oral and chem SPA all in the day!! but time passed really fast and even before i knew it, it's dismissal time. hahas. played Monkey with the girls in class during pc after 2runs round the track. i thought we won't have to run again after NAPFA?? man..i loathe running..during GP, ms lau got us to write an essay within the 1and a half hours..but guess what? i didnt even start on my essay proper by the time the lessons end..just as i started holding my pen and tried to manage a few words, i notice that my hand was actually trembling..so bad that i could hardly make out what i wrote:( i shouldnt have exerted so much force during pc..arghhhh...and so, as expected, during econs test, i couldnt write as fast as i think..and part(b) was really difficult..partly due to the fact that my mind went totally blank after i got a shock seeing my paper flew away (thanks to thre accidental slight brush i gave it)..and part(a) flew away evn before i complete it..*frown*

during the 2nd break, the girls got a blackforest cake for Jasmine the birthday girl from Cookie House..and i got a share of the cake:D anyways, the cake is a gift from our class:) SPA was better than expected..just that i forgot how to use the mass balance..and i totally forgot to wear my goggles!! and obviously, ms Aisha caught me..anyways, i was really glad that sch ended and tomorrow's sports meet..which means - holiday!!

okay..i think i shall upload the photos i kope-d from Crank girls' blog:P

CRANK

2008-05-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

*yawn* mass conversation on gp jus ended so i decided to update my blog!!! seems like it's getting more lively with the visits from Crank gals:) n i went to their blogs to kope some talentime pics:P cos i dint bring any camera..and i must admit that isabella is a really great photographer..as for salina, she shd stick to being our one and only hairstylist^-^watched Dionnie's dance video on youtube..it was really fabulous!! she's such a gd dancer..im so envious:D

though talentime was last saturday, everyone is still talking about it..but suddenly, im feeling so empty bcos there's no dance practices after sch..but isabella said Crank is going to perform again!! for the yoga conference!!

our performance during talentime wasnt our best..that's the comments ive heard..but we did improved..and it's amazing how we turned from strangers to friends..and the bonding was rather close..it's the 1st time i had so much fun ever since i stepped into jj..so, im really thankful for the chance i have to dance and bond with such a wonderful and fun group of people. espescially the girls!! somehow, getting 2nd was quite disappointing..hard to explain why..but i couldnt say that we definitely deserve 1st..well, i dun know..but im just proud of us!:)

and thank you everyone who was there to give support:) i really appreciate it..caijun bought me lilies and made me a really touching card, liyuan got me this really cute and tasty mrs field cookie..i couldnt bear to eat it, but no way am i giving the ants such a wonderful treat..and to my surprise, wentao was there!! i dint know he was coming..he bought me the spicy kimichi rice cakes from vivo (the one i saw in Princess Hours) and a bouquet of roses..

now that the talentime is over, im trying to catch up with sch work..hope the june holidays arrives faster:)

Crank<3s
i miss evryone!!

2008-05-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

P.S wish u were here tonight

2008-05-04T18:00:00.002+08:00

going SCH makes me emo and reminisce..liyuan and i met up with wentao and charlie at tanjong pagar mrt station..after which, we walked to SCH which was really near..and i noticed this v well-known sculpture of a girl playing with her brother..looks kinda real somehow..i guess it's the message that the sculpture brings to the people:) passed shawn, huimin and andrew their tickets..whoa..shawn has got a really cool hairstyle..i wanted to sit with them but somehow ly and i end up sitting at the back with wt and cl..*pouts* surprisingly, alot of bpians were there..most of them were from bp co..walking up the stairs reminds me of the 1st time i came to SCH to give wt a surprise..the excitement accompanied with fear when i went there to take a look at this guy whom i have never seen in reality..a year has passed yet everything remains so vivid in my mind:)
i managed to spot caijun on stage:) she's still so cute..hahas. during the 20mins break, ly and i went down to have a short chat with cj..though i had just seen her days ago, somehow i still miss her loads..
after the concert, we went to Lau Pa Sat (i think this is how it's spelt in english), which cl emphasised that it was 'a stone throw away'-_-"for dinner or supper, whatever it is supposed to be..and i could feel the tension when cl and ly attitude each other:P not a gd sign..after that, we just chat..gals and guys chatting separately..n of cos, we were talking about cl and wt..hahas. gossips plus complaints..
wt then walked me to bt batok interchange, where i saw caijun!! yay!! i was really elated^-^
but mummy and daddy was quite unhappy when i got home:(

omg. alot of assignments are not completed yet..i wonder how am i going to survive next week..how the talentime dance performance will be a success for Crank..gd luck everyone:) i doubt i'd be blogging any time before next sat..

2008-05-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

chem tutorials are getting really freaky wif ms aisha as our tutor..she's being rather demanding at times, though i knw it's for our own gd..but i would have prefered a more gentle approach..cos she really adds on to evryone's stress..but still i love chem..i think:p
havent been really practising our dance lately, which is v bad since our performance is the worst..as compared to other finalists..and the feeling just sucks:( but then, some of the gals would rather complain that they want to quit dance, instead of practising:( and we still havent bought our top!! oh man..
chem make-up lesson tomorrow morning..and i'll be going for caijun's co concert in the evening!! im sooooo excited!!:) but sadly, she said she wouldnt be able to go home with me as agreed..but nvm then, i'll just be there to help her jiayou^-^ i love junjun so much:D

2008-04-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

got back home pretty late because there was an extra dance practice..and tomorrow's econs test:( that's so not pleasant..was checking out the StepUp2 Low dance but to no avail..i only got to know that the song that im dancing to for talentime is actually from the movie StepUp2..thank you chooi teng so much for enlightening me..
the dancers from my group once again had some kinda disagreement with the dance instructor again:( the dancers want to wear shorts but the instructor insist that we settle for black pants..and i just got to know that a gal from our group 走光 very seriously during the semi-finals!! but the gal somehow took it quite well..which is gd..cos if it's me, i will harp on it for ages and be v depressed for a period of time..
and oh no, there's physical conditioning tmr..why can't we just play games instead of work out and run?
going shopping with Crank dancers, only the gals, on friday..

why do i know the truth only now?
what can i even do?
it's just too late..

2008-04-27T20:17:00.002+08:00

sch's starting tomorrow:( no way~

thank god there's labour day!! yippee..
i really cant wait for the 2years to be over..
hope i can do really well..like 1st wife:P

n seeing winnie in real life kinda makes me feel as though im seeing the princess whom i always see in my fairytale book..n i thought i was hallucinating as pointed her out to wentao..so shocked that i could hardly catch my breath..so i called liyuan to tell her about it..winnie is really v cute and pretty..makes me feel so small and inferior:( but im v envious of her..esp her grades and character..i wonder how she can be so bubbly and nice..
she's way more amazing in reality..
kinda hope to see her again:P
maybe i shall go vivo more often..
hahas

2008-04-26T09:58:00.003+08:00

this week has been rather intolerable..sometimes i feel that jc life is really testing my limits..i hate it when people just tell u 'i don't care, u just have to be at this place at this time"..come on..dance practices are taking up alot of my time and draining me physically..but good news, my dance group got into the finals:) quite an accomplishment i guess..i mean, i wouldnt be too upset if i dint get in..cos we only finish learning the steps the day before the semi-finals..a very last minute thing but im glad we got in..but that means that there'd be alot of practices before the actual day comes..im sooo excited!!
but too much dancing and my knee hurts:'( so bad that i could hardly do pc at times..hope next wk will be better..

life is so hard..

it's simple things that u don't get..
and i really don't know wad to say..

2008-04-21T01:07:00.002+08:00

it's now 1am plus..just finish printing my 3rd PI draft..*yawns* im not prepared for sch yet..espescially when i havent studied for my chem and math tests..worse of all, i wouldnt have time to study for it bcos thre's so many dance practices!! oh man..and the semi-finals is on wed and we still finish choreographing our dance steps and practise enough..it's not even decent yet:( i really need a break..

tonight, i just wanna pack up and leave..

2008-04-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

í realise that now im reduced to blogging weekly:( that goes to show that im just busy..in fact, it'd be more appropriate if i add a "very" word in front..hope i don't die in sch..esp not in jjc:P hahas. chooi teng would always moan whenever i say that to her..guitar lessons officially came to an end last thurs and i thought that i could finally go home earlier to rest..unfortuanately, the truth is always unpleasant..or something along that line..i only got to know that modern dancers are involved in the talentime last wed..n the audition is on 16april..which means, ther's only 3 practices for us to learn and perfect everything..o.o omg..*eyes wide open* n the dance instructor is rather weird..she doesn't get angry, upset or happy..she wears the same face..and when she sees that we are misbehaving, she just ask u some questions and then laugh it off awkwardly..

slacked alot this weekend..oh man..
went vivocity with wentao last sat..we ate at this rather new restaurant called Central..they sell 串串 ..a type of food that is being sold at those makeshift stalls in Taiwan..and the waitress was really sensitive and nice:) and wentao ordered damn lot of food..but they rather yummy:D shall go there again next time..n i realised that there's alot of caucasians around..maybe i should go there more often to catch a rich foreigner to marry:P went Daiso to look for pasta for my sis home econs practical..but couldn't find it:( amazingly, it's the 1st time i managed to go above the 2nd floor in vivo..cos i am usually lost and somehow, i just cant seem to go to the 3rd level..the sykpark was really beautiful..espescially the scenery..and i shall go to the playground to play next time..when im wearing pants..

time to slp..hope sch life isnt too intolerable..nites.

2008-04-06T18:45:00.002+08:00

just woke up from a short nap ..*yawn*..was reading the blogs of some old friends a moment ago..and i realised how much i miss them all:'( now we are all living our own lives, with so much differences..i hate this depressed feeling that i get whenever i read this particular person's blog..makes me feel like so dumb ass who didnt work hard enough to achieve this very important thing, to get this chance which would have meant alot..

i cant believe that despite us taking the different routes in life, at the end of the day, we still have so much to share..i just wanna laugh. at myself.

went to sao mu today..and i saw chu harn..it's always so coincidental! i bumped into him when i went to buy lunch from the hawker opposite my house and i bumped into him again when i go sao mu-.- wth..not to mention, we were from the same pri sch, classmates, then now we are in the same jc, same cca. whoa. oh ya, but i didnt went up to say hi cos i only managed to spot him from the crowd..the weather was pretty bad..esp when im not a person who don't mind getting free sun-tanning..and the smoke from the joss sticks is very irritating..i could barely open my eyes..i mean, when i die, i certainly wouldnt want to end up in a place like this..i'll suffocate and die for the 2nd time. hahas. so i was telling wentao that i prefer my ashes to be strewn in the sea, though it kinda pollutes the water:P then i remembered that i've got hydrophobia..LOL.
haiz..miss my grandpa alot alot:'( there is alot of times when i could see that we are actually thinking and missing him amidst the grind of our daily life..

went to help my bro with his job last night at Bishan..mummy bought me my favourite ToriQ bento box. yum yum:) we went o distribute little cards to the private apartments at this specific area and i got damn freaked out. the dogs that the ppl kept were barking like mad at us..and why did all of them had to be so huge..n im really afraid of dogs even those small ones..and the apartments were big and pitch-black at night - making them look like typical haunted houses. and there's this extra-huge, extended apartment which looks like that in the 公主小妹..glam and princessy^-^ so as we walked around the area, i got really touchy cos i tend to hallucinate at night, even at home..

tomorrow's that start of sch but im not ready yet..alot of incomplete assignments..

2008-04-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

rally for the elections of the student council was pretty much some sort of entertainment, though described as "shift" by yvonne. hahas. majority of the candidates were quite convincing except for a few..but overall, it's definitely screwed up cos almost everyone didnt even mention why they want to serve as a student councillor..so it turned out to be more of a talentime-.- ya, wth..lessons ended at 4pm and after which was chemistry makeup lesson and guitar lesson..*yawn* the rain just makes me feel like going to lalala land..
was thinking about whether i should go for the 4weeks xi'an trip in august..my mummy says i should go..but then, i will definitely be missing out alot in school..like cca and school work..and im worried..what if i flunk my promos at the end of the year bcos i missed too much?:( oh man..i hate to think of all these..why cant it be in the holidays or at least, right after end of year exams? haiz..gonna fall asleep any moment..nites:)

2008-03-31T18:56:00.002+08:00

my sis is at camp today..hope she doesnt get homesick again like in pri5 and i have to go and pick her up together with my mum..that'd be embarrassing..but i doubt history is going to repeat itself..i think she's going to have fun:) today lessons ended at 5pm..a v long day..a perfect demonstration of what is meant by "monday blues"..but thank god today was still tolerable..hmm..but i lost the dustbin pig accessory joanne hung on my pencil case:( i went back to LT5 to look for it but to no avail..man..im going to miss it loads..sobs..
oh ya, and a really comical thing happened on my way home..this jj guy took the same bus with me and we coincidentally alighted at the same stop, walked in the same direction..and he actually thought that i was trying to stalk him!! he fastened his pace and kept turning his head behind to check where i was..oh please..why would i want to stalk him?-_-" i cant believe there's anyone who's so damn 不要脸..

2008-03-28T18:48:00.002+08:00

i love fridays!!:)
despite the fact that there was an extra math tutorial after sch at 1.30pm, today's still the only day that i can go home early!! hooray~ tis week had been tiring and to a certain extent - exhausting..and my muscles are aching badly thanks to yesterday's pc..i really hate to run..cos im forever the last to finish? hahas. i guess that's the main reason..gonna make full use of this weekend to relax after a long week..espescially when school life in jj is rather intolerable for me personally..
okay..let me think of all the things i like in jj..then maybe i'll feel better..
i like the..
-soursop milkshake
-chili tomato tuna sandwich
opps..everything revolves around food..i'll try harder..
hmm..
i love the synthetic grass field..
the paranomic view of the sky full of clouds from the window of the pd31 classroom..
i was looking out of the window during math today and i realised something..the clouds really move!! pretty fast..cos the moment mr shane finished explained a small part of the qn, that particular cloud that i was looking at had moved out of my view..amazing:D haha. but i guess that goes to show how distracted i was..i wasn't paying attention and got a shock when he asked me which is the A.P?:P
and i love the 2nd floor toilet at the pd block:)

sadly, that's all i could think of..honestly, i really don't like jj:p
hope i don't get expel from sch the very next monday..

2008-03-23T14:21:00.002+08:00

last night was wentao's performance at the NUS cultural centre..my 1st trip to that place..i really like that kind of atmosphere and setting..reminds me of all those times i went to watch dance performances with the gals..miss jolyn:( well, the day didnt start right, and also, it ended badly too..liyuan was late for 10mins..but still acceptable cos she's a girl..but then her friend, alvin and charlie was late for like more that half an hour!! and that mr chua didnt even apologise..oh god, what's happening to all the gentlemen in the world?? nvm..went to find wentao before the performance though he wasnt allowed to come out..haha. n the funny thing is - he got locked. LOL. izit bcos the door closed when he pull me out when i tried to run into that authorised place? hope it's not me:p but he still managed to rush back in through another place further away. me and liyuan were like starving during the performance and the oreos on my lap was really tempting..but they said no food allowed..the concert was really v professional..n i look the guzheng gals..so damn pretty and classy!! like those fairies^-^ aww...but from my "one of the best seats", i can't see wentao:( but his actions were really big..quite hilarious *giggles*

but then alot of unhappiness arised later the night..shan't elaborate..but ya, sorry wentao:'(

2008-03-22T12:00:00.001+08:00

they say,
tomorrow will be better..

2008-03-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

im on the verge of breaking down..this week have been really crazy..ive got tons of homework that i havent touch. and the math and chem lessons just seem to be too hard for me to comprehend:( i cant focus during lectures and tutorials. my brain just doesnt work and my mind goes blank - no signal at all. and im so tired everyday that i fell asleep during lectures a couple of times..oh man, that's record-breaking la..had soccer and dance, and guitar IDP..such that i go home at around 7 or 8pm evryday..and my bag is seriously v v v v heavy,,and my back hurts!! ouch~

im on my own without u.
it's hard. but i know i will make it through..
someday..

2008-03-16T19:17:00.004+08:00

was practising how to fold hearts using straws..n yay!! i finally know how to fold them after a few lessons from my cousin..haha. quite embarrassing cos i took a long time to catch it:P but my cousin was really patient. thks gal:) imagine someone younger than u by many years pausing and then repeating the steps because u couldnt catch it fast enough. today's the last day of march vacation..sobs:'( sad cos the assignments are definitely going to pile up..and the same goes for my troubles..cos there are forever interlinked..sad case here..but what can i do..just received an sms from a soccer senior..god save me!! my lessons end at 5pm tomorrow. and im having math makeup lecture at around 4pm and soccer training at 4.15pm..nvm that for now since there's a more pressing problem at hand..i still havent finish my holiday homework and there's a whole lot that i can't do:( hope i survive..

n from the sms marathons i have evryday lately, im seriously going to get reprimanded v badly:( but im glad that im keeping in touch with the old pals..ppl like, meiwei, edwin, xiaoyao, caijun, jiaxuan..miss bpghs ppl..

my 七仔!! haha. i was eyeing it for damn long but didnt buy it cos im really broke. but eventually, wentao got it for me!!:) though i dint mouth a word. nah, i dint hint.

and mummy got me this Doramon cookie. too bad i broke it..reminds me of caijun:'(
emo-ing le..

2008-03-15T20:02:00.002+08:00

listening to The Leap Years at the moment...aww..really emo..love corrinne may:) she's got a really beautiful voice..everything was v rush in the morning..perhaps bcos i am used to my slow-paced life..well, my mummy always nag about how slow i am..left the house really early to meet letice at bt batok mrt station..waited a while cos i was extra early today..miscalculation of time again..haha..then we made our way to Harbourfront..yay! we are on the purple line!! i always feel excited and high whenever im on that line..feels so happy:) n i didnt know that vivo is actually so near home!! waited for the rest of OG11 mates..n the OGLs were super duper late..like say 50mins!! i must admit that i was pretty pissed off and impatient..just that i thought i would be kinda rude if i voice that out..anyways, the skypark was closed n the outing plan was screwed up:( the ppl decided to watch the horror film Rule no1 or sth like that..but i really don't dare to watch horror movies after Shutter so many years back..i was kinda traumatised for 3mths..imagine the severity:( so, me, letice and adeline backed out..before their movie, we went for lunch..some wanted subway while some wanted kfc. but as usual, the majority wins:D
was actually planning to go Sentosa to chill out, build sandcastles - both literally and in the air - just plain chatting..but then letice got stressed out when they talked about sch assignments and we eventually went home straight after lunch:( anyways, i went westmall to windowshop alone. bought a few small stuffs. the vanilla oreo iceblended sucks:( urghh..first time i try it. n i totally hate it.

2008-03-13T15:19:00.002+08:00

woke up v morning again. aww...
but feeling much better than last night.
went for soccer training with joanne.
yeah, we love kicking balls..
haha..at least that's what they say:P
training was much tougher..espescially the sidesteps drill..i just cant seem to figure it out:( but jo is one of the best players^-^ hooray!! and then there was the shooting practice..fun!! but then it rained and we still had to continue with the soccer match..and i was really like "r u kidding me? hello?? it's raining.." but the rest of the ppl were really calm and cool even when the rain gets more and more heavy..so, the ending? we were drenched and wet. 2days of getting wet from head to toe. i wonder if i might fall sick soon. im now in a dilemma whether to join dance or soccer if i could only pick out. n which should i focus on? seems hard to decide.
not going to lunch at billy bombers with chels and ppl:( cos of some reasons..havent seen chels for quite some time le..miss her..hope we get to hang out soon.
my thoughts and feelings are still in a mess..
hope i can get over with this soon:'(
but still, im asking myself..why do u have to do this to me?:(

2008-03-13T14:40:00.002+08:00

updates!!
well, was thinking of coming up here last night to blog but end up chatting with joanne over the phone..then my mum was rather unhappy that i was out the whole day and didnt touch any school work at all..

woke up at 5.30am in the morning to prepare myself..yawns..told my mum that i was going to sch for tutorials and she even woke up to walk me to the bus stop:( took bus174 so that my act would be more convincing..then i dropped off at the bus stop outside westmall and changed into my blouse and skirt at the toilet beside the mrt station..ya, im not going to sch..but in fact, im going to Pasir Ris..it's the 1st time i ever lied after so long:'( and im really guilty..sorry mummy for lying:( but i had no choice bcos u definitely wouldn't have allow me to go if i had told u the truth:(i cant believe that i went against one of my strictly-followed principles..i hate myself for doing this..but i knew i had to go bcos i didnt want to disppoint wentao:( nyways, i finally did it after fretting for days. and there i am, on the mrt with my companion - jiaxuan, heading to pasir ris early in the morning..i could hardly believe what i was doing then..n thank you jiaxuan for accompanying me. n sorry for making u wake up so damn early in the morning:) havent seen jiaxuan for quite along time..miss her alot!! so throughout the journey we did some catching up..
upon reaching, jiaxuan grabbed 2 sanwiches for breakfast and ate on the shuttle bus which is sending us (together with a large group of adults) to some jetty in changi..after that, we boarded a ferry. and jiaxuan chose a 6-ppl table seat where an indian family was sitting. oh god, it feels so damn funny that i couldnt help hiding behind my big white bag laughing..no, im not racist or what. just that we seemed damn extra. haha. waited a while for the rest of the passengers to board and off with go to an island called Pulua Tekong. so i guess our motive is rather obvious after mentioning the island's name. it's wentao's pass-out parade or bmtc graduation parade:D beautiful beaches can be seen..and at the canteen, jiaxuan and i shared mee rebus. and why the yam family had to sit diagonally bottom right from where i was sitting??!! i chose the seat 1st k..well, anyways, to sum up, i spent a whole lot of time dodging, hiding, running. in short, playing hide-and-seek. so may times the father turned to look at the both of us. perhaps bcos we were acting v strangely. or i looked funny - as someone claimed-.- and the mummy who is in a rush to the grandstand hurried up beside me and nearly sent me into a cardiac arrest..oh man. oh ya, the parade was short and sweet. when so many army guys dressed in green uniforms marched in the parade in neat and sychronised manner, they all look like a tin soldiers collection!! so cute. espescially when they looked so damn mini-sized when standing far away. the 2nd segment of the parade where family members proceeded down to the parade to help their son wear the dunno-wad-but-nice cap was really heartwarming and touching:) it makes me feel that these 18yr-olds have finally grown up into real men. ya - wow.

but then..
sb didnt wait for me..
sb left me on the island..
T.T so horrible..

went orchard to have lunch with jiaxuan and caijun. i miss my xiao ding dang!!:) she looks rather nice in the aj uniform..walked to ngee ann city and had the $5 2pc chicken meal at kfc. oh ya, before going to meet cj, i went to Dome Parkmall to get my paycheque. $432.50. wah..got so much meh? after jiaxuan left, it rained so heavily and me and caijun - the 2 blur queens tried to figure out where is orchard cineleisure. bought what i wanted. still raining when i went home.

and i promised jaixuan this.
while waiting at jurong mrt station, jx sent me tis impressive sms..read on~

how many trains have passed without u..
my nose longs to be with the tissue.
come, hasten your pace; do u not long to see my face?
-jx the poet
LOL.

2008-03-11T12:39:00.002+08:00

the sky is clear
with u standing by me

well, was trying to figure out my chem tutorials when i suddenly had an urge to blog:) well, is that gd or bad? haha. so, once again, my homework is cast aside and im sitting in front of my comp..

i suddenly remember how hard life was in the past few years..full of struggles and adversities. so many times it gets so painful that the tears just fall unknowingly in the night when i stare into the ceiling while lying on my bed before bedtime..i asked myself what went wrong. but there was no answer. just silence. and still, the tears, they kept rolling stubbornly. but soon, the pain turned into numbness. which was better? to feel the pain? or to feel nothing at all? perhaps the latter - cos it doesnt hurt. life goes on, with smiles..but for others. i didnt realise that till one day, a gd friend asked me.."why do u fake and wear a smile for others?"..i never gave him any reply..such a simple question..yet i have no answer..i wasnt aware that i was actually doing that, till he pointed it out..well, now i know the answer to his question..isnt that life? but now, the new me will smile for others, and will always remember to save one for myself:)

i realised how much better my life is now..though troubles and sadness may still approach me at times, but the gd thing is - they neither stay nor linger around. they come and go. and the feelings of contentment and happiness come, together with this simplicity. and it feels just like a gentle and soft melody that replays in ur mind in the middle of the night - a lullaby that can only be heard with the heart:)

i guess that's all..gotta grab some lunch for my bro..ciao!! :D

2008-03-10T14:32:00.003+08:00

hmm..quite alot of things happened lately..not anything major but just that these teeny-weeny bits of events did managed to add a little spice to me rather dull and boring life:)

okay. i shall start from updating some things on last sat. woke up at around 6am to get myself prepared for sch..quite excited it's going to be my v first soccer training. and the idea itself definitely seems cool enough. but while im on my way to the bus top where i usually board the bus174, jo called. and from her tone, i could tell that she just woke up from her beauty sleep. so i called liyuan who planned to crash our training. and that phonecall from me woke her up from her sleep-.- n obviously both of them overslept. but thank god im in a pretty gd mood..so the blur blur me don't know for what reason unknowingly walk all the way to westmall..and taking the longer route!! oh god. so jo's dad fetch us both to sch and as expected, we were late:P the soccer training was pretty fun, just that it's tiring for me..im really not a sports kinda person..

after that, jo and me went jurong point to grab a bite. jo had a mini kopitiam breakfast set while iordered lime with aloe vera. it was bitter. urghh..then i got changed and made my way to causeway point.met wentao. hmm..really glad that he's feeling happy and stuff:D planned to watch the leap years but then we realised that it's not showing at causeway cathay. but anyway we had some fingerfood at the pasar malam just outside the mall..n the deep fried calamari was v nice. yum yum:) took straight train to yishun. i don't really like northpoint..not really nice or what. the things are also limited. the leap years movie was quite nice. not up to expectation though. cos it was thinking that it might be some 5stars rating seeing how it's based from Catherine Lim's novel..some parts are really touching and emo..but then wentao was giggling quite hard so v 破坏气氛..if it's some other stranger beside me doing that, i would have kicked the person off his seat..or even maybe out of the theatre..oh ya, n the salty popcorns werent as nice as cathay's:( after movie, we headed back to lot1. had the japanese lunchbox kind of food. it's actually yakitori plus rice. nice..whoa. i certainly ate alot. then bought a white zinc bag. and that female-voice gay which meiwei claims, try to cheat me. no way man. rawr. so bad.

oh man. i realise that i have been using my comp since morning. that's like so..i was still telling jo that im trying to study physics. i guess i cant resist the temptation espescially when the comp is just in front of me:( k, gotta go and study!!

2008-03-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

last day of term1 marks the start of march holidays..so today, the lessons were damn slack..oh ya, today's the last day with my OG..*emo-ing* it's funny how i just got to get to know some of them..the OGLs painted a spongebobsquarepants photoframe for all of us - inclusive of their heartfelt comments in a card..aww..that was v sweet:) i love my OGLs loads!!
had PC in the 1st period. n PC=PE..one of the periods i detest most..well, i mean, im fine with the games but definitely not the running..i was really breathless by the time i finished 3rounds of the track..n our pants were soaked wet when we did excercises on the synthetic field which was filled with rainwater..eww..right after that was math lecture. me, jo and ly were late by 5mins cos we went to the canteen for ribena..n it turned out that we werent the last ones..cos it was rather chaotic and the lecturer couldnt start her lecture..everyone wasnt settled down and was making far too much noise..it ended at 10am and i gathered at a corner of the canteen with my OG mates..crapped/chatted with yvonne and letice for 2hrs!! then when evryone is finally there, we took OG group photos at the concourse..n im joining basic guitar for IDP..starting 18march..
after 1pm, ly, jo, sophia, yu yong, jeremy and me went jurong point's pizza hut..then after lunch, i left jp with the guys bcos i happen to have to leave at that time. took bus 174 with yu yong. n god, that guy fell asleep and nearly fell off his seat lah..but he still claim that he won't bcos he had much practice-.- really? doesnt seem like it..haha. anyways, he alighted at outside westmall and me later at njc to meet wentao who just got his alevels results. havent seen him for 3wks!!:'( had a talk at the bougainvilla park cos we had not much place to go..haiz. then we went Mad Jack's after much walking and discussion..i had nuggets and chips..quite nice:D
im really tired these days..i've come to realise how much i long for a gd night sleep..pretty stressed over sch stuff..i don't understand the lectures, there's tons of tutorials thrown to us all of a sudden, tests after march holidays..soccer training early int he morning tomorrow:( no..

i never fail to believe in u, even when i fail to believe in myself..

2008-03-05T19:16:00.002+08:00

it rained quite heavily today:( i hate rainy days..
esp when u just emerge out from the coldest lecture theatre..brr..
i find it v hard to concentrate everytime it gets so cold during lecture..
the j1 classes are finally out!! n all of us went to check out our class with thumping hearts..i must admit im kinda nervous..it turned out that me, chooi teng and sophia are in 08S28!! thank goodness there's actually at least an aquaintance in my class..phew! but liyuan and joanne werent that lucky:( they are in 08S30 and 08S27 respectively..ya, they were kinda disappointed..no doubt..n oh god, my dance partner is in my class too!!! oh no~ hahas. too exaggerating:P n there's only 6guys in my class..so pathetic..but that means that gals will be at advantage cos we can gang up together to bully the guys..heh heh:x
i was really disgusted upon overhearing the conversation between the guys as they checked the class list out..they read out the names of the girls and then say that the gal with the name crystal is v chio and stuff..n the sick part was, they talked the gal in such a manner as if they are discussing about some porn female star. wtf!! i hate guys! i really had an urge to slap them then..but im not someone who's impulsive enough to do whatever that crosses my mind..if not i bet i'd be at the principal office doing some explaining instead of blogging at home..
n ya, another thing that really pissed me off was that there's 2guys who kept bothering joanne about some rumour between her and their guy friend..oh please..what the hell is wrong with them? i mean, v obviously, it's none of their business in the first place..n jo actually even bothered to explain the whole situation to them!! i know she wants to make things clear but she should have known that too much explanation makes her seem even more guilty:( nvm..still, guys suck.
the cca showcase in the afternoon after me n liyuan went jurong point to shop was quite okay..i signed up for modern dance and women soccer.. but v unfortunately, the training and practice time of the 2 ccas clash..which means, i have to give up either one..
haiz. got to stop blogging and read my notes..there's math lecture tomorrow:( no!!!

2008-03-04T22:31:00.002+08:00

*yawn*
really tired tonight..
as usual, mass lectures that i could hardly understand, and that contributes to my headache (partly due to the air-con)..i really should get a jacket during the march holidays..but i doubt i would be able to find any to my liking cos im a 100percent little ms fussy..just can't make up my mind..oh ya, had been spending alot of money on the school's canteen food..esp the milkshakes:) i love the soursoap milkshake!! yum yum:)
tomorrow's probably cca carnival..got to make up my mind about what cca to join real fast..i guess i'll stick to modern dance..cos chooi teng's joining that too..but then again, i feel like taking this chance to try something new, or rather, sth that can be listed as out of my comfort zone..say, women soccer or basketball? or the yoga club seems easy and slack..i'll see again..
today sth v embarrassing, yet funny thing happened to my poor jj frens..hahas. so, here's the story..(as how jo relate to me..)..
she, liyuan, sophia and chooi teng went to LT4 thinking that that's the room for the H1phy lecture for j1s..so, they happily went in and sat down, not realising that they are in the j2 h2 phy class..so the teacher came in and said,"guess what? we'll be finishing the last topic in ur syllabus today!" and then the cute cute jo say "huh? last topic? so fast? i thought we were doing measurement (v 1st topic) yesterday?" then the student beside jo asked her "are u guys j1s? cos this is j2 h2 physics.." and then the 4 v paiseh gals immediately stood up and dashed out of the room as the teacher broke into fit of giggles..i bet the students must be laughing like mad..LOL. it's like they were still so comfortable in the wrong class!! but ya, i wasnt with them and saved myself from the embarrassment..hmm..it must have been fun anyways..
went Lot1 with jo after sch to change our ezlink card back to the students rate. yay!! it's back to 45cents!! im so glad..cos it's really v troublesome when u realise that u have to top up ur card again and again..not to mention, bidding ur money gdbye..we then windowshopped and saw jin hui!! (i think his name is spelt that way) n jo was acting like a small kid who finally saw the sch senior she had always admired after so many years..but im just glad that he made her day just by appearing in front of her..n that victor guy is really an ass for treating her like that..i guess no matter how sweet a guy can be, he's still a jerk..
alevels results coming out this friday!! im really anxious..hope wentao do really well..

2008-03-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

hey hey. im here blogging again.
just came back from dinner with family at jurong entertainment centre.
i love the mango sunrise dessert:) yummy!
n i got mummy to get me this really cute monster-cum-animal keychain:D
yays!! im feeling so happy at this moment..
hmm..over the moon would be more appropriate in this case.
cos i just heard a piece of gd news from my lil fren..

n ya, i realised that the muscle in my right arm is so much bigger after the camp. whoa. i guess im going to get really manly..*muscle-man pose*

oh god..what am i doing here? i am supposed to try to read my physics lecture notes before bedtime:( *pout* tomorrow's already the 3rd week since the start of sch..but somehow i still havent get that "it's the 1st day of sch" kinda feeling..maybe after nxt week and march holidays which mark the end of mass lectures..
as usual, i wish that everything will go smoothly tomorrow..

havent seen wentao for 3wks le:'( we were supposed to go watch The Leap Years and do my back-to-school shopping on sat but mummy made me stay at home to get some rest..miss him loads..sobs.